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btw was I the only person that noticed that 20th of March this year, if written in the DDMMYYYY format comes out as 20032003? 23 skidoo?
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*sigh* I met Linda yesterday after work. Just kept her company until she had to go to a birthday party at a bar nearby. As special as I may be in her life, I think history is just repeating itself. I'm a 'special friend' and that's all it's ever going to be. Not that I'm complaining, in fact I am very aware of what I've brought into her life and how she's allowed me to see certain parts of parts of it normally hidden from everyone....I am REALLY surprised how no one has taken 5 minutes to stop thinking about how she'll fix or magic THEIR problems and just...you know...care, give a shit. That pisses me off and hurts me at the same time. Why do sweet people get walked all over?
So I listen. I call her sometimes just to say "I wanted to know how you're doing today? Are you feeling good today? Have any problems? Anything you want to bitch about?". If I ask for anything it's just time, time with her.
I hate having that little hope deep, deep inside at times like these. Having Venus in Aries is no fun at all. It doesn't understand. Peaceful acceptance and non-expectation would be the best attitude. Wish it required just a little bit less mental and emotional discipline. I'm good at working towards the good of a relationship and not afraid of compromising for it.
She's actually already been offered a place to stay by another guy who is moving from Stockholm to Scotland as well. She won't have to pay any rent because he actually has a house there and he can even fix up a job for her. Which is far more than I could ever provide.
*sigh* sorry...feeling a little sorry for myself. Hope you don't mind me indulging it just a little bit. tryptamine will be mad at me for moping and sulking again
promise it's only a little sulk tryp! 
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Things to do this weekend:
- Sort out good crap from bad crap. Take all the bad crap to recycling center.
- Vacuum and maybe even mop my room.
- Call Linda and arrange Monday night (she's finally got some time for me) to go watch Secretary.
- Need to call Linda's bestest friend Christine and plan Linda's birthday
- Research some Triple Chocolate Cake recipes for Linda's birthday cake
btw was I the only person that noticed that 20th of March this year, if written in the DDMMYYYY format comes out as 20032003? 23 skidoo?
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*sigh* I met Linda yesterday after work. Just kept her company until she had to go to a birthday party at a bar nearby. As special as I may be in her life, I think history is just repeating itself. I'm a 'special friend' and that's all it's ever going to be. Not that I'm complaining, in fact I am very aware of what I've brought into her life and how she's allowed me to see certain parts of parts of it normally hidden from everyone....I am REALLY surprised how no one has taken 5 minutes to stop thinking about how she'll fix or magic THEIR problems and just...you know...care, give a shit. That pisses me off and hurts me at the same time. Why do sweet people get walked all over?
So I listen. I call her sometimes just to say "I wanted to know how you're doing today? Are you feeling good today? Have any problems? Anything you want to bitch about?". If I ask for anything it's just time, time with her.
I hate having that little hope deep, deep inside at times like these. Having Venus in Aries is no fun at all. It doesn't understand. Peaceful acceptance and non-expectation would be the best attitude. Wish it required just a little bit less mental and emotional discipline. I'm good at working towards the good of a relationship and not afraid of compromising for it.
She's actually already been offered a place to stay by another guy who is moving from Stockholm to Scotland as well. She won't have to pay any rent because he actually has a house there and he can even fix up a job for her. Which is far more than I could ever provide.
*sigh* sorry...feeling a little sorry for myself. Hope you don't mind me indulging it just a little bit. tryptamine will be mad at me for moping and sulking again
promise it's only a little sulk tryp!
...
Things to do this weekend:
- Sort out good crap from bad crap. Take all the bad crap to recycling center.
- Vacuum and maybe even mop my room.
- Call Linda and arrange Monday night (she's finally got some time for me) to go watch Secretary.
- Need to call Linda's bestest friend Christine and plan Linda's birthday
- Research some Triple Chocolate Cake recipes for Linda's birthday cake
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does that make sense?