Been such a crazy weekend. Maybe I'll tell you about it... 
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AAARGH!!! So much to do in 4 days!!!
I must have all my stuff for Reading, packed in boxes to be picked up by my own personal goal of Thursday. I could do it in one full day - 12 to 20 hours.
Cost me around 320 I predict.
Also, gotta move out...
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AAARGH!!! So much to do in 4 days!!!
I must have all my stuff for Reading, packed in boxes to be picked up by my own personal goal of Thursday. I could do it in one full day - 12 to 20 hours.
Cost me around 320 I predict.
Also, gotta move out...
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I'm writing this from a beautiful sunny afternoon in Tampere, Finland, a city of 200, 000 souls. I'm actually suprised how many more immigrants there are since 3 years ago, the last time I was here. Finland has one of the toughest immigration policies and is very difficult to become a citizen of. They have on of the lowest quotas for refugees and political asylum...
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blueeyedangel:
Wow cool about the northren lights.I havent seen them but maybe I will go farther north into Canada than I have been in the past and one day and cath a glimpse.
Cool that you had a sauna sort of like a sweat lodge the Indians here have.
It was weird yesterday I was feeling really down about not having much cash and how would I afford school and fit in sleep time between work and school and then all of a sudden for a reason I cant explain the worry just fled, it went away and I somehow just knew it would be okay. Then I started to feel excited like a little kid after going shopping for school supplies. I cant wait to start school again.
hope all goes well for you in Reading.
Cool that you had a sauna sort of like a sweat lodge the Indians here have.
It was weird yesterday I was feeling really down about not having much cash and how would I afford school and fit in sleep time between work and school and then all of a sudden for a reason I cant explain the worry just fled, it went away and I somehow just knew it would be okay. Then I started to feel excited like a little kid after going shopping for school supplies. I cant wait to start school again.
hope all goes well for you in Reading.
joyrider:
ooh borealis! once, during some crazy sunspots, i saw the aurora borealis in arizona. the lights were dancing over the tops of rock monoliths in monument valley. here's to the big universe! wow!
as far as yoga goes: there's so many different styles. your best bet is to check a few out and see what feels right. i'm thinking ashtanga or kundalini for you.
i haven't read cosmic trigger...just the illuminatus! trilogy and a few scattered essays. much respect for RAW, though.
as far as yoga goes: there's so many different styles. your best bet is to check a few out and see what feels right. i'm thinking ashtanga or kundalini for you.
i haven't read cosmic trigger...just the illuminatus! trilogy and a few scattered essays. much respect for RAW, though.
I'm writing this from a beautiful sunny afternoon in Tampere, Finland, a city of 200, 000 souls. I'm actually suprised how many more immigrants there are since 3 years ago, the last time I was here. Finland has one of the toughest immigration policies and is very difficult to become a citizen of. They have on of the lowest quotas for refugees and political asylum...
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ladydeath:
May i gut your fish? Now most people say they need their daily source of vitamins,well i need My daily source of violence. You said it yourself I'm a violent person. There's more to me then my need of blood and violence though. I love other things that aren't so disturbibng. Like kittens and furry animals. Ok so I have no idea what i'm talking about,I'm simply rambling. Anyway so i think I need to go brush my teeth.
Love you
Love you
kudra:
To "nail me with in retaliation"? Give me a fucking break. Grow up. You're taking a goddam conversation and making it into a grade school battle.
So yea, this is me deciding not to talk to you any more.
So yea, this is me deciding not to talk to you any more.
Finland tomorrow.
I will have internet access.
Bringing all of my Anime collection to entertain my friend.
He's planning to take me to his summer cottage where we'll use his Bastu, the Finnish word for Sauna. Then we'll jump in the icy water of the lake.
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I will have internet access.
Bringing all of my Anime collection to entertain my friend.
He's planning to take me to his summer cottage where we'll use his Bastu, the Finnish word for Sauna. Then we'll jump in the icy water of the lake.
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kudra:
so what now??!
jaime:
we have NOTHING in common? well, we both are into R.A. Wilson. I read Cosmic Trigger when I was 16 and re-read it several times since. Have you read any Crowley?
Ov=Koum=Sex Fluid, it's a reminder...kinda like how Crowley suggests that one says Will before eating, not as grace, but as a reminder ov one's Will to become alligned with one's True Will.
Yeah, Gen coined it..he also coined the term Industrial Music in 1975 (I think it was '75)
He's an amazing scholar and a clever artist...plus he founded TOPY, even though he got kicked out.
As for your comment in my journal, I'll respond twice.....
With every moment koums Death. There is no free ticket to Perfection. There only IS or IS NOT/NAUGHT. Existence. NONexistence. Autonomously. Quaquaversally. Perfection equals Syzygy, Syzygy equals Perfection. Perception dies with each passing second. Therfore, All is Death. All is Life. Nothing is. Death is. Everything is. Everything is not. Changeability is stability. All is perpetual Flux.
Again, you ought to relax. Maybe stand back and add some color to this black & white way you choose to interpret others' ideals. after all, this is Eternal Groovyland. Seek Fun & Psychedelia, not refute & ego battle.
Ov=Koum=Sex Fluid, it's a reminder...kinda like how Crowley suggests that one says Will before eating, not as grace, but as a reminder ov one's Will to become alligned with one's True Will.
Yeah, Gen coined it..he also coined the term Industrial Music in 1975 (I think it was '75)
He's an amazing scholar and a clever artist...plus he founded TOPY, even though he got kicked out.
As for your comment in my journal, I'll respond twice.....
With every moment koums Death. There is no free ticket to Perfection. There only IS or IS NOT/NAUGHT. Existence. NONexistence. Autonomously. Quaquaversally. Perfection equals Syzygy, Syzygy equals Perfection. Perception dies with each passing second. Therfore, All is Death. All is Life. Nothing is. Death is. Everything is. Everything is not. Changeability is stability. All is perpetual Flux.
Again, you ought to relax. Maybe stand back and add some color to this black & white way you choose to interpret others' ideals. after all, this is Eternal Groovyland. Seek Fun & Psychedelia, not refute & ego battle.
Will be in Tampere, Finland from the 18th to the 22nd next week. Will be back with more news...
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cheech:
Have a nice trip, and thanks for the lengthy comment on sea life; nice when people take offhand journal topics seriously enough to comment on 'em.
alisa:
you are so lucky that you get to travel all the time. it's easier once you're in europe to travel to different countries than it is from here, huh? i can't wait until i finally get to the U.K. i'm going to have so much fun just walking around the streets.
i love british comedies so i would be marvelling that i was actually in towns that were in backgrounds of some of my favorite shows. i hope you have a blast.
i love british comedies so i would be marvelling that i was actually in towns that were in backgrounds of some of my favorite shows. i hope you have a blast.
Ahh, it is so fucking frustrating trying to write when you're not feeling like you can write.
I'm trying to condense the last two weeks into an exciting picture-forming literary experience.
*sigh*
check out: http://www.tim.nu
I made friends with Timothy Owe of the site above 2 weeks ago. This is the guy I mentioned some journals ago whom I was so excited to make friends...
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I'm trying to condense the last two weeks into an exciting picture-forming literary experience.
*sigh*
check out: http://www.tim.nu
I made friends with Timothy Owe of the site above 2 weeks ago. This is the guy I mentioned some journals ago whom I was so excited to make friends...
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too:
have fun
blueeyedangel:
Wow seems like your relationship with linda has eveolved some since last I commented in your journal. That is great, and the intamacy she shared with you whether just fever dreams or visions seems much more signifigant than mere physical intamcy. I know how it can suck not to be physical with anyone for a long time. Right now I am in a relationship where we are pretty intense physically but not so much connected spiritually. Not because we arent compatible but because of my fear.
Basically I am guarded because we are match eachother so well in most areas I am scared of "losing myself" as I call it, scared to surrender like I will lose my freedom and I dont want to lose control.
So it stays stuck on the physical level until we figure ways to intergrate my fears or dissapate them. So I am just maintaining the status qou and thats all I can do for now. A few months or a year from now it will change as everything does, maybe to more spiritual level but maybe not.
The fact that you and Linda seem to alrady be able to share the spiritual intamcies you talk about may be a good thing afterall so that if you do become ramantic for lack of a better word then it will have a solid foundation to last even after the intial burn of passion fades as so often seems to do.
well have fun on your travels and adventures.
Basically I am guarded because we are match eachother so well in most areas I am scared of "losing myself" as I call it, scared to surrender like I will lose my freedom and I dont want to lose control.
So it stays stuck on the physical level until we figure ways to intergrate my fears or dissapate them. So I am just maintaining the status qou and thats all I can do for now. A few months or a year from now it will change as everything does, maybe to more spiritual level but maybe not.
The fact that you and Linda seem to alrady be able to share the spiritual intamcies you talk about may be a good thing afterall so that if you do become ramantic for lack of a better word then it will have a solid foundation to last even after the intial burn of passion fades as so often seems to do.
well have fun on your travels and adventures.
Had a weird experience last night.
I can't quite recall the details off what set it off, but it all began in a dream where I picked up a book I was reading and read the first paragraph in a chapter I had originally left for later. The book was a red fabric bound volume. I don't know what it was about. The paragraph turned...
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I can't quite recall the details off what set it off, but it all began in a dream where I picked up a book I was reading and read the first paragraph in a chapter I had originally left for later. The book was a red fabric bound volume. I don't know what it was about. The paragraph turned...
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lostomen:
Wow...
Strange encounter with your mind.. Sounds like a bit of a lucid dream, that is, if you were able to consciously will things to happen in seeming "real time"
Definately an interesting story though..
Laibach. I have some of their stuff on my computer.
They remind me of Ramstein a bit... On the album i have, they seem to emphasize God a lot.. its an okay album, but not one to hear over and over..
Have a good time at the show tho. I hope you enjoy it.
Take care Vas.
L.O.
Strange encounter with your mind.. Sounds like a bit of a lucid dream, that is, if you were able to consciously will things to happen in seeming "real time"
Definately an interesting story though..
Laibach. I have some of their stuff on my computer.
They remind me of Ramstein a bit... On the album i have, they seem to emphasize God a lot.. its an okay album, but not one to hear over and over..
Have a good time at the show tho. I hope you enjoy it.
Take care Vas.
L.O.
llona:
I had this crazy dream about you last night where we were in a school and you had a very odd accent.
Funny, huh?
xo
Funny, huh?
xo
It is soooo weird to have been here before.
Scribbling little nothings.
Intamaneous Netra Teflin.
Ra-Ula Sifrous Tao.
Lima Beans and Soup.
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Oh no, I've been a bad llama.
*in high pitch voice* Bad Llama, BAD!
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Make sure y'all keep an eye out for Mars this month.
It's the closest it's ever been to planet Earth since 57, 000B.C., and won't come as...
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Scribbling little nothings.
Intamaneous Netra Teflin.
Ra-Ula Sifrous Tao.
Lima Beans and Soup.
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Oh no, I've been a bad llama.
*in high pitch voice* Bad Llama, BAD!
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Make sure y'all keep an eye out for Mars this month.
It's the closest it's ever been to planet Earth since 57, 000B.C., and won't come as...
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bridgetwnpeddler:
Oh yeah email viruses are so the scourge of my existence. Ugggh..
As for lone quests. I don't care too much about spells so the Palladin does fine by me. I have played Druids and Clerics but in the end give me a couple heal potions, armor and sword and I am good to go. The Blackgaurd is a nice idea but since you only get your bonuses against good characters and most mods are written for you to quest against evil characters... well you see the problem.
Now monks are a good class and seem to be coming into their own. We shall see, I still have to meet one who can take down the the same enemies the Palladin I built can survive.
As for lone quests. I don't care too much about spells so the Palladin does fine by me. I have played Druids and Clerics but in the end give me a couple heal potions, armor and sword and I am good to go. The Blackgaurd is a nice idea but since you only get your bonuses against good characters and most mods are written for you to quest against evil characters... well you see the problem.
Now monks are a good class and seem to be coming into their own. We shall see, I still have to meet one who can take down the the same enemies the Palladin I built can survive.
joyrider:
slow steady pink light down at this latitude, too.
you remind me more of an alpaca than a llama.
you remind me more of an alpaca than a llama.
I am in a strange mood.
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I am reading Cosmic Trigger, which repeatedly explodes one's head.
Just before I wrote this entry, I finally saw End of Evangelion. It is a reconstruction of the last 2 episodes of the Neon Genesis Evangelion series. These are episodes 25 and 26.
There are some very creative interpretations and use of Qabbalic concepts and the...
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I am reading Cosmic Trigger, which repeatedly explodes one's head.
Just before I wrote this entry, I finally saw End of Evangelion. It is a reconstruction of the last 2 episodes of the Neon Genesis Evangelion series. These are episodes 25 and 26.
There are some very creative interpretations and use of Qabbalic concepts and the...
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pihka:
Yes, Subrb starts on Friday the 8th- Ill be there on the previous evening already, though, to sort out where and when and with whom Ill be working. I hope theyve managed to squeeze in some leisure time for me as well. Urga is the band that usually makes the music of Cirkus Cirkr, play live in their performances etc. Love them! Unfortunately I havent got a clue of the program yet, except from what can be read from the website: and I dont know any of the performers. Id suggest some of the Cirkuspiloterna shows though! At least all those Ive seen so far have been marvelous.
Urga is the band that usually makes the music of Cirkus Cirkr, play live in their performances etc. Love them! Unfortunately I havent got a clue of the program yet, except from what can be read from the website: and I dont know any of the performers. Id suggest some of the Cirkuspiloterna shows though! At least all those Ive seen so far have been marvelous.
pucabul:
What did I see? Well the first thing I saw was my Great-Grandfather not too long after he passed away. He wasn't too happy at the time, so it remains one of my more vivid experiences.
The rest I don't talk about with people I don't know.
The rest I don't talk about with people I don't know.
Still need to sit down and do that story about last weekend's party and epiphanies.
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12th to 14th August: flying to Vaxjo to see my Faerie Godmother.
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18th to 22nd August: Flying to Tampere, Finland to reunite and catch up with one of my oldest friends Janne. He's known me since I was 15 years old. That's 11 years! He went to the...
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12th to 14th August: flying to Vaxjo to see my Faerie Godmother.
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18th to 22nd August: Flying to Tampere, Finland to reunite and catch up with one of my oldest friends Janne. He's known me since I was 15 years old. That's 11 years! He went to the...
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maelwys:
Meeting up with old friends is always great. A lot of mine still live relatively close to London so we manage a meet up once a month at least. I'll be doing that this weekend We've all known each other since secondary school when we were all 11.
Rome: Total War looks amazing. And with my new computer I'll actually be able to play it properlly. Took my a year to play Medieval on the full setting rather than Campaign map and auto calc with battles.
We've all known each other since secondary school when we were all 11.
Rome: Total War looks amazing. And with my new computer I'll actually be able to play it properlly. Took my a year to play Medieval on the full setting rather than Campaign map and auto calc with battles.
siara:
THANKYOU soo much for sending through the rei pics!! you ar the best!.. they are hella sexy.. !!
I am so jealous that you are doing so much travelling!! sounds like heaps of fun.. wish i could get away for awhile!
I agree it is so nice to have friends that you have known for years.. My best friend I have known for 11 years.. and he is the best!
I agree that song by Aphex Twin is amazing.. i lurve his stuff! .. i'm not that much of a fan of much electronic stuff anymore, only Aphex and FSOL.. !!
Hope you are well and happy!
XX
I am so jealous that you are doing so much travelling!! sounds like heaps of fun.. wish i could get away for awhile!
I agree it is so nice to have friends that you have known for years.. My best friend I have known for 11 years.. and he is the best!
I agree that song by Aphex Twin is amazing.. i lurve his stuff! .. i'm not that much of a fan of much electronic stuff anymore, only Aphex and FSOL.. !!
Hope you are well and happy!
XXGoing to a rock club tonight with Linda.
Tomorrow (Thursday July 31st) I go out to the islands in the Stockholm Archipelago to spend the day with my aunt.
Next week I go to Finland.
Next week I also hope to meet Pihka who will be here for a circus festival.
Week after that see a very special old lady. She's a very magical, and...
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Tomorrow (Thursday July 31st) I go out to the islands in the Stockholm Archipelago to spend the day with my aunt.
Next week I go to Finland.
Next week I also hope to meet Pihka who will be here for a circus festival.
Week after that see a very special old lady. She's a very magical, and...
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cheech:
Hi, vastad. Thank you very much for your efforts. I'm kinda dumb though; I loaded it up and erased it, then it didn't work cuz I didn't know what I was doing. Anyway, i wanted to publicly acknowledge on here -- vastad is cool, he's trying to hook me up with video games...but I dont wanna clog up that email account with a lot of memory, so I will email you a different address if you wanna try again. No hurry; I am totally being a hobo this weekend. If you're outta town, just relax.
Also, it's late but I will read the above tomorrow.
Also, it's late but I will read the above tomorrow.
llona:
Re:height and appearance. Your explanation makes sense. And I'm flattered you said I look tall stretched out in the bed. I always wanted to be taller. And also thanks for the comparison to Bettie Page. She was definitely a petite person. I think you have to be short as a woman to carry off that delicious curvy yet not plump body. I'm sort of in the middle.
re: godmothers. I too, am deadly curious as to who you find as a lovemate.
Oh, and I don't know if I told you but I think your profile pic is just. so. cute.
xoxo
re: godmothers. I too, am deadly curious as to who you find as a lovemate.
Oh, and I don't know if I told you but I think your profile pic is just. so. cute.
xoxo
Woot!
Had a brilliant weekend! And more brilliant good things afterward.
For those who recall my Tower Story, I am planning to exceed beyond the quality of that written piece when I put 'pen to paper' in spinning a yarn about the last 5 days.
I look forward to entertaining you all in the literary sense.
Life is good!
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Had a brilliant weekend! And more brilliant good things afterward.
For those who recall my Tower Story, I am planning to exceed beyond the quality of that written piece when I put 'pen to paper' in spinning a yarn about the last 5 days.
I look forward to entertaining you all in the literary sense.
Life is good!
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pihka:
Hee hee...Ive been "living witchcraft" for the past ten years, approximately, as well... Currently my path seems to be leading into Celtic shamanism, which is a most interesting journey...
But yeah! Bring the fellow witch along and come to enjoy some brilliant circus!
What will you be doing in Tampere? Its a nice small city but despite the big lakes, I always miss the sea.
Currently my path seems to be leading into Celtic shamanism, which is a most interesting journey...
But yeah! Bring the fellow witch along and come to enjoy some brilliant circus!
What will you be doing in Tampere? Its a nice small city but despite the big lakes, I always miss the sea.
aries:
yea, vespertine is a little wierd. took a while to get into. your hair, i think you should get come red and white chunks put into it. kinda random. the red, something permanant and something u can see but not bright like mine. the white , i mean whatever your hair comes up lightest with bleach. your hair may not go tha white due to the darkness. so more like a pale blonde. so you will end up with 3 colors. OR u can dye all of your hair brown then put black and white chunks into it. that always looks good, once again-3 colors. untill u get roots, then youll have 4 colors.
Good luck getting everything packed and ready for the move.. you must be getting excited!!
Wah.. you've been to anime-cons..wish they had those over here! i am jealous. I didn't end up finding a uniform on the net to buy so i am getting my pattern maker to make a uniform for me.. i am going to take in a picture of rei and make one like hers.. which should be soo cute.. not that i could possibly look as good in it as
rei! sign*
Have a good week, hope everything goes well for you!
I can't wait to hear about Reading...do you think it will be a culture shock?
xo