vassilis

So, it one in the morning. i dont want to sleep because i dont want to dream but i dont want to stay awaek because i am sick of my own thoughts.

so, quick update on my life the past month:

>> Kung Fu <<

i passed my grading (well, duh). Now in Yellow 2. Have pretty much spent the last month stressing on how im going to get through the next year. It was touch and go for a while, i lost my fighting spirit for abit. Yes ladies and gentlemen, i almost gave up Kung Fu for good. I actually gave up instructing because i cant take feeling so useless at it.

Good news is that i am over it. Si Fu is in Tai Pai, which apparently is what i needed. I am sick of him worrying about me hurting myself. So yeah, i am slowly getting the fight back. Slowly.

>> Love Life <<

Unfortunately, this is a tad confusing and slightly tangled up. As i am writing this i dont even know if i have a boyfriend or not anymore. Long story, involving tons of harsh words on both sides. Apparently we have very different ideas of how a relationship should be. Naturally im being hard on myself (story of my life).

>> Studies <<

Well, i need to actually start studying. i failed two assignments already which is crazy because i passed these modules last year. i have been so caught up in my stupid excuse for a life that i forgot im working towards a goal.
On the same note, need to apply for honors next year. I am still scared to do it.

>> Friends <<

I have been neglecting friends, pushing boundries on friendships and basically going apeshit. For the friends on the site (you know who you are) i am sorry i have been such a bitch the last month. I know you probably forgiven me already and made up some sorry ass excuse for me. I was wrong to behave the way i have been. You all deserve better from me as my friends. I am an ass, and need to make it up to you.



So that is my sorry life in a nutshell.
Im done being depressed. It stupid.