ick. I feel a little better anyway.
went tonight to visit Audra.
we saw the movie "Wrong Turn".
It was really nice to spend time with her, it has been a while.
I really do not feel good. I have resisted my devil tonight, and I am beginning to pay for it. I tried to call Morgan for a little moral support, or something, but she isnt taking my calls right now....
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we saw the movie "Wrong Turn".
It was really nice to spend time with her, it has been a while.
I really do not feel good. I have resisted my devil tonight, and I am beginning to pay for it. I tried to call Morgan for a little moral support, or something, but she isnt taking my calls right now....
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I need to spend some time alone, listening to Bjork and finding out what that place below my skin looks like.
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vim:
OH SNAP!!!....i thought fer sure i was the only person on Earth who listened to Voltaire!!!
three heavy stones!!....will keep it from floating...
haha
three heavy stones!!....will keep it from floating...
haha
dolorian:
yep. you do taste the best... you don't think i've bitten you enough? 
*kisses*
you keep getting *kisses* from me.... aren't you the lucky one....
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*kisses*
you keep getting *kisses* from me.... aren't you the lucky one....
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very often, my days are a strange blur of listlessness, sleep, and depression.
Today was such a day.
As are most days recently.
These are moods that are stripping me of my life, my being.. everything that I am.
Worse yet, I do not know what the fuck I need to make it well...
Is it more pain? Lachrymology?
Is it that I need the...
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Today was such a day.
As are most days recently.
These are moods that are stripping me of my life, my being.. everything that I am.
Worse yet, I do not know what the fuck I need to make it well...
Is it more pain? Lachrymology?
Is it that I need the...
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dolorian:
can we please get a happy journal entry from you, mister?
i hope to see you saturday... you can watch me dance again... that makes you happy, right?
xoxoxoxo
i hope to see you saturday... you can watch me dance again... that makes you happy, right?
xoxoxoxo
saturn1:
i hope things get better for you, i really do. i wish there was something that i could do , but i know there isn't.
call me love
call me love
Getting ready for Demf...
sorry, "Movement".
I spent the entire time last year with Kat. It had it's problem, but it was otherwise a dream.
I will begin methadone treatment early tommorow morning, at which time, I say goodbye to my friend, the needle.
This is how a broken heart kills you.
I told my dealer that I was quitting, that I wouldnt be buying...
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sorry, "Movement".
I spent the entire time last year with Kat. It had it's problem, but it was otherwise a dream.
I will begin methadone treatment early tommorow morning, at which time, I say goodbye to my friend, the needle.
This is how a broken heart kills you.
I told my dealer that I was quitting, that I wouldnt be buying...
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saturn1:
things are wearing on me. maybe we can talk soon. my memory is going to hell .. i feel like i haven't talked to you in a while but i know i did sunday
kira:
i'm bringing dolorian so you better include me in those plans to...i miss you, too.
Another loving movement has gone unnoticed, and unwanted.
A little more energy flows into nothing.
I dont know how to be a bad memory.
Going to the DeMF will be odd this year, it will be the first time without you, I think... I cant imagine how it will be..
I am sorry if this is another "downer" entry, but this is what I am....
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A little more energy flows into nothing.
I dont know how to be a bad memory.
Going to the DeMF will be odd this year, it will be the first time without you, I think... I cant imagine how it will be..
I am sorry if this is another "downer" entry, but this is what I am....
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hel:
i'm sorry sweetie....
i'm jealous of dolorian she got to meet you...
my roomate and my friend are taking a trip to detroit to DmEF... but alas i'm stuck here as usual.... blah
:hel:
i'm jealous of dolorian she got to meet you...
my roomate and my friend are taking a trip to detroit to DmEF... but alas i'm stuck here as usual.... blah
:hel:
saturn1:
dude, you're so hot
oh.
dolorian:
mmmmm...
saturn1:
hrm
maybe you saw my other reply. i'llbe at small's , call me if you want
maybe you saw my other reply. i'llbe at small's , call me if you want
SG have removed all of my pictures and they changed my user pic, too. I dont know why.
I dont even know where they got this old user pic from, because I had replaced it a long time ago.
I am groggy now, not much to write.
I dont even know where they got this old user pic from, because I had replaced it a long time ago.
I am groggy now, not much to write.
saturn1:
i think their server crashed... everyone;s are gone. i think i'm going to smalls tonight in hamtramck? maybe we can see each other for a second.
i'm really tired.... i haven't slept yet since yesterday & it's 5pm ... naptime
i'm really tired.... i haven't slept yet since yesterday & it's 5pm ... naptime
Last night was really fucked up.
Still, I was forced into 2 decisions.
1. Lose weight.
2. "Quit"
Whatever it takes, do both.
I ended up getting pulled backstage (after the covenant show). I knew virtually no one there.
Covenant turned out to be a bunch of sexist, rude norse weiners. Yeah, I wasn't impressed.
Still, the show was great.
Not to mistake art for...
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Still, I was forced into 2 decisions.
1. Lose weight.
2. "Quit"
Whatever it takes, do both.
I ended up getting pulled backstage (after the covenant show). I knew virtually no one there.
Covenant turned out to be a bunch of sexist, rude norse weiners. Yeah, I wasn't impressed.
Still, the show was great.
Not to mistake art for...
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cutthekidinhalf:
heh It was nice to see u again...
WHy do u need to lose weight??? dork.
anyways... I probably will go to Shelter tomorrow after the Adult show at Magestic....
well,,, U r absolutely gorgeous...
WHy do u need to lose weight??? dork.
anyways... I probably will go to Shelter tomorrow after the Adult show at Magestic....
well,,, U r absolutely gorgeous...
Enkidu was both beast and god.
Incomplete, save for his gilgamesh, who is man and god.
where is my gilgamesh?
you know that in the end,
after our triumphs, and our terrors,
I do die for you.
Incomplete, save for his gilgamesh, who is man and god.
where is my gilgamesh?
you know that in the end,
after our triumphs, and our terrors,
I do die for you.
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saturn1:
fa shizzel?
vassago:
you know, whatever.
glad you're at least a little better... let me know if there's anything i can do...