varuna

There was a “post a selfie and I’ll tell you your best feature” thread I saw just a minute ago. While scrolling through my selfies I got lost in memories of friends and fun.... but I also found this old selfie... it honestly shocked me to think How far my mental health has come. I had a real problem towards the end of my high school years of trying to fight my own natural body shape. I would fast then binge, fast then binge, crash diet, don’t eat this, count that calorie. Ect ect ect. I honestly let it consume me, always striving to be the skinny friend, the friend with the thigh gap, the “petite” friend and so on.

It’s been three years since I’ve done any dieting, it’s been three years since I measured my worth on the circumstance of my thighs or whether they touch each other, it’s been three years since I hated what I saw in the mirror, three years since I woke up and didn’t have to fight myself through another day of rules and unhappiness.

I eat what I want and exercise enough to be my healthy happy weight. I’ve been a consistent 130 for a little over a year now.... and I’m happier with myself and my body image than when I was at my “goal weight.”

Mental health and confidence is far more attractive than hurting your body and seeing results.