vanuslux

"The sense acquired is all too grave
With less than one percent left in me
This awesome prison locked and sealed
For times i've borrowed
For times i've failed
And i've never seen my hands
And i couldn't walk away
Two worlds are the same tomorrow
Still i must not complain"
- Paradise Lost "Two Worlds"

Isolate

Another day, another frustration. Wyspurr used the money in the bank that I told her not to touch, leaving me short on the draft for Roth & Earl's hosting that's supposed to draft tomorrow. Shannon sent a couple of bucks via PayPal which would have been enough to cover it except for I didn't think about the cut PayPal takes out of the transfer so now I'm $0.36 short.

Aside from that, it's been a relatively decent day. Wyspurr, Belfazaar, and I went over to Shannon and holierthancow's place with the kids and hung out, had dinner, watched I, Robot and most of Return of the King. It was nice.

Something really bothering me, though, is my lack of alone time. With four adults besides myself in the apartment, I haven't been alone in my own home except when I've been asleep. It's going to drive me nuts. None of them are quiet, inobtrusive people either. They watch TV a lot. It's three in the morning and even with my earphones on playing music I hear them. I'm used to the wee hours being my quiet time and as much as I want everyone to feel at home, I'm starting to not feel very at home in my home. I'll probably adapt to it when I'm more settled in from being back from vacation, but this weekend it has really affected my mood. Some solitude would be very nice.

On the flip side, I like having company around when I am in a social mood. Everyone is fun, talkative, opinionated people with radically different viewpoints which is a lot of fun when I'm game for some conversation. They also drink a lot, so I'm never at a loss for a drinking buddy or two when I'm in the mood for a brew. So it's not all bad. Maybe it will get better when it stops raining all the damned time.

I've got a lot of stuff to get to work on this week. Now that I'm going to be housedad again, I'm going to see a more intent eye towards getting the house issues in order. I want to get things cleaner, more organized, more structured.

I need to set up a seller's account on eBay so I can make a bit of spare green...not only to make ends meet, but so that I can make sure I have enough money by September to make sure Wyspurr and I can not only afford to do Dragon*Con ourselves, but can make sure Brenda can afford to come if she's able to. It's possible that other life issues might prevent her from coming up, but I want to make sure being short of money won't stop her.

I need to get the creative wheels going again. I need to write. I need to write lots. I have so much writing I need to do. I need to do some mad hardcore writing. I also need to exercise my rusting photography skills and work on my websites.

Last, but not least, is I need to get moving taking my plans regarding the sensual hedonism group and putting them into action. I'm not certain it's going to go the way I hope, but it's something I really want to do and believe has a lot of potential if I can just get the right kind of people involved. I know there are a lot of people who would really enjoy something like what I'm going for...it's just a matter of presenting it in a way that they understand what the intention behind the group is and makes them believe that the ideal isn't too good to be possible. That's the hard part...not getting people interested...but rather getting them to overcome their fears and misconceptions.