"The left they say I'm a facist.
The right calling me a communist.
Hate hate hate hatred for all - one and all.
No matter what you believe.
Don't believe in you - and that's true."
- Type O Negative "We Hate Everyone"
Fuck You, World
Fuck, I'm annoyed. I was taking a nap. I asked Wyspurr to get me up in an hour. She just woke me up several hours later. Then she tells me that I have to leave for work in four hours. I had no fucking clue that I have to work tomorrow. I never look at the schedule because I'm the weekend baker. I work the fucking weekend. No one talked to me about this shit. I fucking hate having stuff sprung on me.
Then when I get home from work I'm going to be stuck in the house all damned day and night as Wyspurr does her Daisy troop leader thing, then goes off to her rollergirls meet. I can't even invite anyone over to watch movies or something because the house is a disaster area. So I can look forward to a whole day spend alone, bored, and depressed. So basically a repeat of today, except with less sleep.
Since getting our taxes it seems like everyone and their sister has been hitting us up for money. "Hey Winter, I need $5 for this. Hey Winter, I need $10 for that. Hey Winter, can I have $13 for a MARTA card? Hey Winter, would you pay my $60 registration fee for Fantasm?" I'm starting to hate people. A lot of my depression lately has to do with feeling used and unappreciated. Maybe I should shoot myself in the face too...then maybe people will stand around and care about what I felt for five minutes. Of course, the flaw with that plan is that I wouldn't be around to enjoy being empathized with and besides, as depressing as life is it's at least fun on occasion. Being dead, I imagine, probably isn't much fun at all.
At least the stove is hooked up. It's good to finally have a fully operational kitchen again. Too bad there's no food in the house to use with it. We've not made it out to the grocery store in some time. This not having a car shit is for the birds.
The right calling me a communist.
Hate hate hate hatred for all - one and all.
No matter what you believe.
Don't believe in you - and that's true."
- Type O Negative "We Hate Everyone"
Fuck You, World
Fuck, I'm annoyed. I was taking a nap. I asked Wyspurr to get me up in an hour. She just woke me up several hours later. Then she tells me that I have to leave for work in four hours. I had no fucking clue that I have to work tomorrow. I never look at the schedule because I'm the weekend baker. I work the fucking weekend. No one talked to me about this shit. I fucking hate having stuff sprung on me.
Then when I get home from work I'm going to be stuck in the house all damned day and night as Wyspurr does her Daisy troop leader thing, then goes off to her rollergirls meet. I can't even invite anyone over to watch movies or something because the house is a disaster area. So I can look forward to a whole day spend alone, bored, and depressed. So basically a repeat of today, except with less sleep.
Since getting our taxes it seems like everyone and their sister has been hitting us up for money. "Hey Winter, I need $5 for this. Hey Winter, I need $10 for that. Hey Winter, can I have $13 for a MARTA card? Hey Winter, would you pay my $60 registration fee for Fantasm?" I'm starting to hate people. A lot of my depression lately has to do with feeling used and unappreciated. Maybe I should shoot myself in the face too...then maybe people will stand around and care about what I felt for five minutes. Of course, the flaw with that plan is that I wouldn't be around to enjoy being empathized with and besides, as depressing as life is it's at least fun on occasion. Being dead, I imagine, probably isn't much fun at all.
At least the stove is hooked up. It's good to finally have a fully operational kitchen again. Too bad there's no food in the house to use with it. We've not made it out to the grocery store in some time. This not having a car shit is for the birds.
Be strong.