vanuslux

"I don't mind if I get broken I don't mind if I get fixed
I don't mind if I'm not spoken I don't mind if I get kicks
If I wake up dead I'll wake up just like any other day
And the photographs of god I bought have almost fade away
Everything just passes by I thought it always would
But then I kissed her"
- Jesus and Mary Chain "Snakedriver"

Self-Doubt

I don't like doubting myself. I strive to uphold honor and integrity. That requires a great deal of self-awareness and self-control. The slightest slip in either can call my trustworthiness into question. I don't like not trusting myself, even in the slightest.

It was nice. There was no harm done. It wasn't necessarily a bad thing. It was just something I told myself I wasn't going to do and I didn't realize that I did it at the time.

If I were anyone else, this probably wouldn't bother me. I am Winter Arcane, though, and by Goddess I'm supposed to be better than that. As slips go, it was completely harmless and quite pleasant, but it's the general principle that troubles me.