"To those who understand, I extend my hand
To the doubtful I demand, take me as I am
Not under your command, I know where I stand
I won't change to fit your plan, take me as I am"
- Dream Theater "As I am"
Train of Thought
It has been a long day and I'm kind of sleepy, but I don't like going too long without at least saying something in here. It will help me sleep.
Things are going really well for the most part. Things are super tight financially this week because of rent and other bills but if we can hold out 'til next Tuesday it should be smooth sailing from there, especially with our tax return that should be here in eight to fifteen days and the rent break we're supposed to get for all the time that we haven't had a kitchen. Our new sink and counter should be finished being installed by tomorrow, so our kitchen will be usable again and we can migrate all the kitchen stuff out of the livingroom.
I think I'm finally starting to find the right people in this city. It took a little attitude adjustment, but things seem to be falling into place. I'm coming back into my own. I don't just mean the great improvement over when I left Asheville that has already happened. I'm feeling a return of genuine belief in who I am and that's a powerful thing, just as I am a powerful person when I let myself be. I'm still sluggish. My spirit's muscles ache from disuse. The strength is there, though...stretching out and pushing to break free of its confines.
I will shout my name to the cosmos again...and I shall be heard. The time will come.
To the doubtful I demand, take me as I am
Not under your command, I know where I stand
I won't change to fit your plan, take me as I am"
- Dream Theater "As I am"
Train of Thought
It has been a long day and I'm kind of sleepy, but I don't like going too long without at least saying something in here. It will help me sleep.
Things are going really well for the most part. Things are super tight financially this week because of rent and other bills but if we can hold out 'til next Tuesday it should be smooth sailing from there, especially with our tax return that should be here in eight to fifteen days and the rent break we're supposed to get for all the time that we haven't had a kitchen. Our new sink and counter should be finished being installed by tomorrow, so our kitchen will be usable again and we can migrate all the kitchen stuff out of the livingroom.
I think I'm finally starting to find the right people in this city. It took a little attitude adjustment, but things seem to be falling into place. I'm coming back into my own. I don't just mean the great improvement over when I left Asheville that has already happened. I'm feeling a return of genuine belief in who I am and that's a powerful thing, just as I am a powerful person when I let myself be. I'm still sluggish. My spirit's muscles ache from disuse. The strength is there, though...stretching out and pushing to break free of its confines.
I will shout my name to the cosmos again...and I shall be heard. The time will come.
I have lived here all my life and constantly struggle with the fact that very few individuals can even ascertain the level of reality I exist on. Of course suburbanite crackers are notoriously stupid. Being a quiet person doesn't help much though.
Hey, is TwigTech one of those "people" we were talking about?
~whispers to Vanuslux and points at Twig~