Taking The Chris Out Of Christmas
My life is tumultuous at times. It can get rather arduous and challenging now and again. Hell, its not unusual for it to be an agonizing pain in the ass. Its a crazy life, but I love it. There is so much awesome in my life that few people can imagine how utterly wonderful it is to be me sometimes. We have our problems but no amount of money in the world could buy me away from my family. Debra. The kids. Brenda. They all tempt me to eat my own head sometimes but for every time they drive me to the brink of insanity theres dozens of times they bring me to bliss and joy. Sometimes just a couple of hours after things seem to be at their worst.
Life is good. Last night we finished trimming the Christmas tree. It was brief but fun. I was kind of distracted by Futurama since they were playing the only episode Id never seen before. I only put a couple of ornaments on, but I did take pics of the rest of the family putting them on.
Debra and I had a bit of a fight last night before we decorated the tree. Chris came by to collect some things and instead of just coming to the door he called Debra and had her come outside. I didnt know what was going on so when Debra vanished outside I followed and found her sitting in Chris car. I was pretty pissed off. I felt like Debra was sneaking out to rendezvous with him behind my back so I confronted them and to make a long story short I rained all over them. I was a bit of an ass and Im man enough to admit that I was somewhat out of line. I shouldnt have acted the way I did about what I did but I also think that it was pretty low of Chris to not come in the house. Chris has a pattern of being unbelievably shitty to Debra and then when he should be eating humble pie he comes back and acts like whatever relationship problem theyre having is directly my doing. At this point Im fed up with it and Im not going to tolerate his bullshit anymore.
I do need to stop letting his bullshit become an excuse for my own bullshit, though. Just because I have plenty of good reasons to be angry doesnt mean I necessarily have to put so much of my emotion into it. Focusing on my anger isnt constructive and I need to get over having a fight or flight response whenever something really ticks me off.
In other news, work is working out pretty good. Papa Johns isnt the best job Ive ever had, but its not been too rough. Im getting the hang of things okay and Im getting a lot more hours than I was over at Einstein Bros. I like most of the people I work with and things are pretty laid back which is good.
My life is tumultuous at times. It can get rather arduous and challenging now and again. Hell, its not unusual for it to be an agonizing pain in the ass. Its a crazy life, but I love it. There is so much awesome in my life that few people can imagine how utterly wonderful it is to be me sometimes. We have our problems but no amount of money in the world could buy me away from my family. Debra. The kids. Brenda. They all tempt me to eat my own head sometimes but for every time they drive me to the brink of insanity theres dozens of times they bring me to bliss and joy. Sometimes just a couple of hours after things seem to be at their worst.
Life is good. Last night we finished trimming the Christmas tree. It was brief but fun. I was kind of distracted by Futurama since they were playing the only episode Id never seen before. I only put a couple of ornaments on, but I did take pics of the rest of the family putting them on.
Debra and I had a bit of a fight last night before we decorated the tree. Chris came by to collect some things and instead of just coming to the door he called Debra and had her come outside. I didnt know what was going on so when Debra vanished outside I followed and found her sitting in Chris car. I was pretty pissed off. I felt like Debra was sneaking out to rendezvous with him behind my back so I confronted them and to make a long story short I rained all over them. I was a bit of an ass and Im man enough to admit that I was somewhat out of line. I shouldnt have acted the way I did about what I did but I also think that it was pretty low of Chris to not come in the house. Chris has a pattern of being unbelievably shitty to Debra and then when he should be eating humble pie he comes back and acts like whatever relationship problem theyre having is directly my doing. At this point Im fed up with it and Im not going to tolerate his bullshit anymore.
I do need to stop letting his bullshit become an excuse for my own bullshit, though. Just because I have plenty of good reasons to be angry doesnt mean I necessarily have to put so much of my emotion into it. Focusing on my anger isnt constructive and I need to get over having a fight or flight response whenever something really ticks me off.
In other news, work is working out pretty good. Papa Johns isnt the best job Ive ever had, but its not been too rough. Im getting the hang of things okay and Im getting a lot more hours than I was over at Einstein Bros. I like most of the people I work with and things are pretty laid back which is good.