Hey guys, more long blog (finally heh!)

It's not much a homework, kindaish. This week @rambo and @missy put a video homework about how you treat yoself! haha I am probably going to do that too :) @bloghomework

But I've been thinking lots about body acceptance and learning to re-link your body image with reality of sorts.

I've been struggling again with weight and loving myself. As you all already know I've done a bypass tummy surgery, my tummy has exactly 3cm. I've lost 66kg and done mammoplasty as well. I know it sounds daft of me to say to love yourself after I've done all this with my poor body. But it's real and it's constant. Since very young I've heard and seem everyone treat me ok when I was with anorexia and bulymia. My mother was also a model so she was ecstatic when I was thin. But sick.

This past weeks I've been feeling the urge to harm and to go deep on depression come back.

Feeling that I started to rethink about all that I already know about body acceptance... Looking around on Instagram I went on @nayru feed and sent her a message here about this (girl i will answer you!). About how much I admire her and that she remind me about why I started modelling and why I struggle with myself every single day to be ME and not someone else. I admire her and admire a lot another girls here and outside here that don't over edit themselves. Photoshop is to enhance beautiful pictures, to make the lighting become even more glorious and a good picture became even more good, to do creeppy and crazy ideas. But not to change you to the point you forget how you really are. All of us are pretty, with and without PS and we have to sometimes reavaluate what we show others.

I know that can be seem as harsh but ok: we are models, a lot of girls follow us here and on Instagram. Posing yourself as only perfect and beyond flaws can really cause damage TO US and to OTHER GIRLS. When you are very young and your idols are perfect you want to be like them, except nobody is perfect. And It's good to remember this. Creating a image above humanity can create a lot of comparisons and that's never ever good.

Just wanted to say this here because I too have to remind this all the time.

That's a really good text about this that I would love if everyone reads. It fits almost all situations not only weight problem and this text changed my life completely, here is the link THE FANTASY OF BEING THIN. (PLEASE @jacinto2 READ THIS TOO!)

And about the title, @gladyce made a challenge to put unflattery pictures of ourselves side by side with "good" pictures haha and I think it fits this blogpost and I LOVE this because I might be the only person who loves to send ridiculous pics to all my friends doing lots of non-sense.

So I will post a bunch of crazy ass pictures because yes.

I am probably gonna lose some followers but heh hahahaha

(I also send my friends and boyfriend a lot of videos singing and doing idiotic stuff. ask @pisces hahaha)