Blog homework and a huge thanks.

As always I am so very humble with all the love around here. I've been kinda shy about it. But you all oughta know how much this means to me. If you can, please read.

Also misses @rambo @missy and @lyxzen that made this all happens.

I've been through a hard phase. My grandma passed away last week (yeah I haven't told here about it...) - she was with a severe cancer for some years - and i've been very down in general about modelling and what I want to do and be. People on my regular work and people from family and "real" life have been harassing me.

I have already 28 years old, not much I guess but I am a old soul. I live kinda by myself since I was 10. The age "to be a model" is passing by. Some days I am just overthinking this whole thing. Other days I receive dick picks or sexual offers or just "can you send me a nude for no reason because I want to?". So most days I feel defeated. I see myself and what I want to represent as art. I love to have so many art on my skin, my veins and on my being. I am not saying "i am a living art, fuck yeah i am awesome". I am saying that we all can choose to represent some form of art we love and cheerish. I usually know who I am and what I love. I usually know how to separate the model, from the person, from the art and from the porn.

Sometimes this all gets blurry.

Sometimes I just feel there is so much to go for and so little time and means to do it.

Sometimes I just see myself as some see: an object. A sexual one. Not art. Not even close to it.

I am just rambling but I don't know, I truly like this site and I like to read what the girls say to cheer each other. I love what here represents.

The first time I heard about Suicide Girls and the meaning behind the name I was just...in love.

By the way, you know why It's called Suicide Girls?

Is girls that commited social suicide for just being themselves. For having tattoos, for having piercings, weird hair, geek personas. Just weirdly non-conformist.

That's just so me. My whole life.

Anyways.

Blog homework right.

So yeah, 3 laws from Vanessalandy:

- We all just go around naked.

- We all win a quota of potatoes and chocolates daily.

- We can't say shit about each other in no circunstance or we will live 1 year without our quota of potatoes and chocolate and we must wear clothes, so everyone's know that we were a dick.

(this picture is just cause I look pretty)

I hereby declare this Vanessacandylandy laws!

(and of course in this land you should all give your love to my new set too, or you get NO CANDY)