vanityxassassin

Sleep insane
Dream (on) the inside, dream (on) my own.
Once escaped... star filled road

I have always tryed to please everyone that has came into my life, I always wanted to be the light they never had, thats where my pure heartedness comes from.

Sometimes I runand sometimes I crawl
Sometimes I fly and sometimes I'm gonna fall

I want to be the one person you can never forget, but sometimes I know I end up being the person you wish you never met.

I feel as if maybe Im to harsh at times, to scared to let myself feel, ever since I moved from baltimore to here I have had walls up and so many terrible fears. they havent left me, not one little bit. and I know thats why I made so many stupd mistakes here, I know thats why I broke some hearts. I didnt even know I was doing it, I never see whats in front of me, Im to afraid to. Iam weakhearted and weak minded. I know Im always going into a differnt direction from everyone, I have all these differnt beliefs. Iam not meant to be understood, my actions are not meant to be understood.

I was brought up wiccan my whole life, wiccans are suppose to have a destiny with someone of the same spirutal decent. how does that sound? its hard to swollow and hard to digest. its a lonely road for people like me. but I wouldnt give it up for the world. its who Iam, makes me beautiful in the purest way. I like that.

I know I can be cold hearted its in my nature, sometimes all I know how to do it become blunt. Im such a horrible person. Everything is not going to be okay.

I am thinking Asleep mid-sentence- the words fell apart. No one is listening
anyway. This day will soon turn black and my "wants and needs" will spill
on my burning ashes. I learned to be selfish today...I learned to be
alive. These things I care for are for my personal gain and my person
happiness only. Why should I sit in your chairs and satisfy your
standards. I've done it all before and I've confused myself a thousand
times. The tragic day that I call morality just doesn't do it for me
anymore. No more choices, just standing in the cold. The day will turn
black and I will have either lived or died. Asleep mid-sentence- my words
fall to the ground. Swept into this dreamland. Economic satisfaction,
never succeed. But happiness has its place. Justice will not lie in your
corner. New day towards death, only compassion for my own needs make my
need necessary.

She thinks again Throw myself in the corner; I have nothing to complain about
here. A tragic day seems too peaceful to most, spoiled ambitious turned
my heart to black. I'm figuring out this realization process- the process
to never look upon bitter ground. Living dreams, loving dreams, awakening
to what I've always dreamt of. The familiar sound of lovely love from the
love of my life will keep the notes coming. From the reciting of the
show, from the plip and the shevanel, from the grind that annoys, and the
sarcasm, they all hate...forever I worship. I'll kill, love, and hate for all of you.
Thank you for the best part of my life.


i pray for the sunshine. Gun in my mouth, i pray for the sunshine
Vanity


Jess and Tim, thank you for being my closet friends I have had here, thank you for seeing me for me, thank you for going through all the trials and tribulations. I love you guys with the depths of my heart. you mean the world to me.I couldnt ask for more. you have showed me what true pure hearted friends are, I have never had that. you made this lifetime worth liveing for me.