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The Helpless Dreams Of An Assassin, that is me


there is a shadow that has fallen over this bleeding heart


my hopes and dreams are always shattered. take them away, take them away.

im so sorry i did this to you.

i bleed these memoirs these fading pictures of a shell that used to be.
once existing as an impression, but the fire never took.
imperfection within the due process but there you are enveloping me again.
every touch, a feeling of saturation,
a restructuring of a vessel going to the wheel.
this has reversed the depletion of a hemorrhaging heart.
pressing back to something beautiful..

all I know is I feel myself sliping further into a tranquil time of abandonment.

im just so so lost. and i feel like im kicking my heart, my heart is becomming black and jaded. it needs to be purified. I need to be mended.

i talked to jody today for the first time in 7 months. it felt so good. i miss her, she was my bested friend and in my heart she will always have that place that cant be touched by another in that way.

just makes me relize how much I miss Baltimore, and how much I belong there.

Normal life was something I'd seen as tragedy
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