vanity_assassin

There's a silent urge to leave this cloud....


So I'll take this other road, after I get up from my knees.
Because I'm sick of being lied to.....


Im still that little girl that wishes apon a star, I guess you can say I have a lot of dreams, my dreams are the only good things left in my mind, their my happiness.

I am always going to be that girl that wants complete and utter happiness, and never ever wants to cry a single tear again, because crying seems to be the only emotion I have.

I have so much talent and so much ambition and you wouldnt even know it, becasue I dont show it, why should I? I have noone to share it with.

people around here that call me their friend, dont know me at all, they think they do, but they fucking dont.

I will always be that girl that wants to be everything she never had as a kid, all I want is affection and attention, something I never got growing up.

I will always be that little girl that found her mom dead when she was 12, I will always be that girl that just wants a mom figure, someone to talk to about all her fears.

I will always be that girl that wishes she wasnt emotionally and pysically sick.

I will always be that girl that wants to be understood, the one that wants someone to go "O I wonder how Kristin is doing" I want to mean something to my so called friends.

I want to feel alive, beautiful, special, I want to be someones only one.

for once I want to feel secure in my life.

I used to have so many dreams but people crushed them, and well I think I did too...


And I can't forgive myself for all the things I've done.
But you, you do......


I want to see your eyes.
I need to feel your love.


These words roll of my tongue like second nature.
But Im far from my womb, and you know Im far from you.
So when do I come back to you?
Was this already written or have I fallen so far
I cant tell the light from the dark.

I thought you had me forever.
But Im sure you thought the same about me.
And Im sorry, so sorry.

These dreams run through my head that frolic through some tube of my brain.
Im going insane, Ive forgotten my name.
So Ill use yours, like a dropped friend I wish I never left.
I wish I never left you. I wish I never left you.
I cant tell the light from the dark.

I thought you had me forever.
But Im sure you thought the same about me.
And Im sorry, so sorry.

Winters come early this year.
Like a bird in the rain, Ive tortured my everything.

The rain falls, and I never meant to leave you standing.