CVS GIRL UPDATE - skumped again, once again THE MAN puts the hurting on young love, I dont want to get older. Went back in Wednesday (see former blog for original story) to buy some Tylenol for my achin bones & a bag of Chex Mix, picking out my stuff, she eyes me at back of store & grins and a BIG ole wink, very cute, we both chuckle. I go up to ring out, say hello, & she back, & I say "Its STILL happening I'm growing old & crusty", she says something like "you are NOT old, you're doing fine" & grins, I say "so you're not gonna share the secret?", she says, "not this time" *bashful grin*. Okay at this point I DEFINITELY have the feeling shes in the spotlight, her bosses & coworkers are watching like hawks, drab looks on their faces, kinda hard-assy. I abort, dont wanna stress her.
So TODAY, I go grocery shopping next door (sure calculated, but really needed the stuff from somewhere), & have been thinking, I cant buy stuff every time, such a careful balance, if I go in & buy something I dont need, feels ingenuine to me & her, feel I owe it to make it plain why I'm there, she knows for heavens sake, but I'm so afraid of coming over like a stalker, a problem I've never had but dont wanna start.
So I go in, case the joint, right time too, 2 PM after lunch crowd, always dead, sure enough shes alone at the counter, I come up, she grins again, I very gently say hello & hope your having a good day, & confidently roll into "I came here to ask you if you'd like to meet at OCSC (killer local bar) this weekend to talk?", she blushes a bit, still smiling, boss & coworkers now zeroing in from a distance, kinda have the 'stink eye' look, in my gut I know shes had something said to her, maybe been warned before me. She seems a fun & adventurous soul, the kind who starched authoritarians in the world enjoy reigning in.
She says "I'm out of town this weekend", I say "how bout Monday night?", she is forced straight to the point, 'If I agree I'll get fired" *sad grin*........thank you though, & I'm sorry........this is so sweet." I say "NO Problem, dont worry a bit please, I appologize if I put you in a tough spot, i just had to try, you take care". As I leave she gave me the cutest, slyest wink.
So bumbed, but kinda proud I pushed my comfort limits for a chance at spending some time with a good soul
Is this getting emo?
AFTER ANALYSIS - anybody at work is vulnerable, & completely beholden to the intelligence & coolness of superiors, judging purely on looks (awful, but what do I do), they are old & conservative, & granted she is probably bound by some HIPPA & work policies. What I wish I'd done was simply slide her my card with a brief message acknowledging her being monitored & position, leaving it up to her.
A friend says I should still try & slide her a card when I pick up prescriptions next month, but I dunno......
What I DID do (& she was keen to make sure she knew where I was talking about) was tell her where I'd be hanging out & when, so atleast she knows where to find me.
I hope I'm not a stalker. But I know I'm a nerd. And I'm kinda okay with that.
Pinball machine gets here next week, yummy, Centigrade 37 will heal my wounds.
Thanks for the support guys.
So TODAY, I go grocery shopping next door (sure calculated, but really needed the stuff from somewhere), & have been thinking, I cant buy stuff every time, such a careful balance, if I go in & buy something I dont need, feels ingenuine to me & her, feel I owe it to make it plain why I'm there, she knows for heavens sake, but I'm so afraid of coming over like a stalker, a problem I've never had but dont wanna start.
So I go in, case the joint, right time too, 2 PM after lunch crowd, always dead, sure enough shes alone at the counter, I come up, she grins again, I very gently say hello & hope your having a good day, & confidently roll into "I came here to ask you if you'd like to meet at OCSC (killer local bar) this weekend to talk?", she blushes a bit, still smiling, boss & coworkers now zeroing in from a distance, kinda have the 'stink eye' look, in my gut I know shes had something said to her, maybe been warned before me. She seems a fun & adventurous soul, the kind who starched authoritarians in the world enjoy reigning in.
She says "I'm out of town this weekend", I say "how bout Monday night?", she is forced straight to the point, 'If I agree I'll get fired" *sad grin*........thank you though, & I'm sorry........this is so sweet." I say "NO Problem, dont worry a bit please, I appologize if I put you in a tough spot, i just had to try, you take care". As I leave she gave me the cutest, slyest wink.
So bumbed, but kinda proud I pushed my comfort limits for a chance at spending some time with a good soul
Is this getting emo?AFTER ANALYSIS - anybody at work is vulnerable, & completely beholden to the intelligence & coolness of superiors, judging purely on looks (awful, but what do I do), they are old & conservative, & granted she is probably bound by some HIPPA & work policies. What I wish I'd done was simply slide her my card with a brief message acknowledging her being monitored & position, leaving it up to her.
A friend says I should still try & slide her a card when I pick up prescriptions next month, but I dunno......
What I DID do (& she was keen to make sure she knew where I was talking about) was tell her where I'd be hanging out & when, so atleast she knows where to find me.
I hope I'm not a stalker. But I know I'm a nerd. And I'm kinda okay with that.
Pinball machine gets here next week, yummy, Centigrade 37 will heal my wounds.
Thanks for the support guys.
b) I have been in retail for years before and have never heard of a policy where people at a grocery store cannot date customers, that worries me that it is a cop out. I applaud you going out of your comfort zone but the ball is now in her court, she knows your intentions and it is up to her now.
c) you can always cast a wider net you know