deep breathes are helpful today. first valentine's day alone in three years is no fun for me. i hate the fact that i'm so overly romantic that five months later i still can't stop dreaming about her. when you love someone, it isn't easy to live through any holiday without them. so far it's been a struggle for me to get through things day to...
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i really need to move to philly.

i feel like the best friends i've got are down there, and i'm honestly through with everything this area has to offer. there are way too many memories, being part of this crazy fucking generation makes moving on hard enough without having to sleep in this bed and stand in her footsteps every where i go. i feel...
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That humane society commercial with that Sarah McLachlan song makes me want to cry every time. Equal parts sad animals, equal parts kinda feeling like one of them. Emo.

i hate that seeing her fucking username on youtube is enough to make me want to cry three and a half months later.

what is this big secret to getting over someone? do i even have that in me? i feel like i'll be hurt for the rest of my goddamn life, and i hate it. i'm letting all the shit she put me through...
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the little furball found a home, which is good. i dubbed him vulture, but i'm sure his new family will give him a less bizarre name.

so, 2011...please be nicer to me than 2010. okay? okay. my new years resolution is to heal emotionally. i can't go through life being jaded, without trusting people. not everyone is an ass. not everyone will fuck me over....
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i am a bitter, jaded bitch.

this is what late night conversations with my friends teach me.

my new ukulele is the SHIT. thank you santa. me and chris drew will be jamming the fuck out one of these days, i can feel it.

christmas was kinda lame this year, but kahlua saved it a little. the ukulele, not the booze. my christmas was almost completely sober this year. TOTALLY LAME.

i got a ton of money though, so i'm going to...
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if anything is saving me from being miserable right now, it's my guitar.

so thankful for the fact that my mom was fine with the noise i would make when i was nine.