vampirelust4

blah frist this is not some suicidal bulshit i am done with that this is me being mad at me which i am more and more often now and there will be many many typeos lost words okkkk lets strate i am tried of saying the worng shit and makeing or haveing them take this shit i am saying something worng or makeing tit sound how i i dont want it to sound there is only one person i care about in this fucked up world and she lovesme half the time and cant stand me the other half i dont know what to do there any more becuase i cant say one god damn think right i am tried of makeing her mad i am tried of makeing every one mad all i ever do is fuck up and it is getting to me and i am strateing to lose my mind over it the pain and happieness mixing together and i cant tell what it is what and you know i want her more then anything kat i fucking love you plz forgive me i dont want you to be mad/mean to me any more i just want to hold you be make you happy i want to wake up beside you i want to feel your skin agisnt mine blahness so now i am stuck alone and wanting you and seeming kinda creepie but you know i dont care anymore i just want you back and when you said i love you to this weekend it was the happiest i had been since you said you would marry me i want you you are my soul mate i know that but i was to stupid to keep you i cant even get a jon at the moment some times i dont feel like i should be here i cant do anthing right but you made me feel like i could change god damn i have fucked up to much i need her here to help me go the right way in life well wow this truned into i miss kat thing blah i am such a loser ------------------ taken from my myspace