Today is going to be either super awkward, or super smooth, and I have about 7 hours of fretting over which it will be. Lovely, isn't it!
Today I'm getting my stuff back from my ex, and I've been smart enough to have him drop it off at my moms...I gave him the option to drop it off yesterday, but he chose today when I will be there. I'm not sure if this means he wants to talk or that it just worked out better for him. I'm hoping it's the latter because I have nothing much to say.
Part of me is hoping for this diehard romantic gesture, and part of me is hoping he throws in on the door step and walks away.
If he wanted to talk I don't even know what I would say. I cry when I'm angry, and he always said that he thought adults who cry are pathetic, so if I do see him I'll have to be calm and let my anger leak out of my face after.
I don't know why I'm so anxious. Maybe because so much was left unexplained and so much of what I said was so exaggerated the last time we talked. I didnt blame him for everything, but I did point out quite ferociously that it wasn't just me who created the ending.
