valhala

Sooo my work mess aside, which is still frankly a mess. I seem to be making messes everywhere I go. My current boyfriend and I had a bit of a falling out not to long ago, over a female friend of his who was determined to break us up over petty issues of her own... women So I broke up with him and bleh blah, then of course he droped the L bomb and became determined to win me back. The problem is I met someone during our break... how cliche of me... Anyways I decided I wanted to be with this guy, up until he invited me to move in after about a week... which later turns out was a joke. So I put the breaks on that one and Let the ex try to prove we could work... At first he dd a pretty damn good job, then after a week he went back to being his good old haughty, pompous self. The thing about him is his family is incredibly rich and the boy has never wanted for anything. which makes him act very childish sometimes. So either way. I have fully concluded that I don't love him, don't see us lasting long term, but I don't know how to back out of this with out hurting him... Which sucks because I hate hurting people and everytime it looks like I am, I chicken out... much like with my job situation. I keep convincing myself the redeaming qualities are good enough to make up for the not as flattering ones, which they were up until i met that other guy... Now I've kind of figured out that I'm looking for something completely different... And I just don't know how to get out of it >.<