valgal

So if following my list to reach my dreams includes ignoring key points such as saving all my money and buying some perfect fitting jeans and some totally fucking rad zebra print with skull buckle shoes, then I'm right on track! I know, I know I'm absolutely hopeless but in my defense I never claimed to be otherwise. I think anyone on here who knows me well will not be at all surprised by this, and to anyone who is disappointed in me I say fuck you, it's my life and I'll ruin it if i want to! However I do promise to try to stop complaining so much....me?? complain? whinge? whine? Never!!! If I don't make it to America by this July, and lets face it thats the most likely scenario, then I will not have a big cry on here about it because i know its my own fault. In all honesty though I think i got a little ahead of myself during my last blog. These plans I make are never well thought out and often involve incredibly high expectations of myself and then when I don't meet those expectations l feel nothing but like a big fat failure. The future is all a bit fuzzy at the moment.... so many yet at the same time so few opportunities. So many choices, life altering decisions, so much effort to be made. I could....
1. Go to the U.S for a month from mid July, as planned. See Rancid in NYC, Coney Island, L.A, Vegas, meet some fucking cool people, see some awesome shows, have the probably the greatest time of my life but have to be super tight with money and then come home to no cash, possibly no job and therefore no home.
2. Save my money for a while longer so I actually have enough to fall back on when i return home but then miss out on half the fun shit I wanna see and do in the states. Or even save up to travel for the next U.S summer... oh but so far away and me so dying to travel already!
3. Again save the dollars for a bit longer and fuck off to the U.K for who knows how long. I'm a British citizen so I can go there and come back anytime I want plus I have loads of friends and family to stay with over there and could work and stay for as long as I want. From there travel to a whole bunch of other countries aswell. Maybe even live there for a year or so and go to the U.S from there.
One common factor in all this is that I need to save more money, thats a given and that is what I'm doing and plan to continue to do..... minus a few tattoos and pretty things along the way! Oh so bad!
I'm so fucking indecisive lately, seriously I'm annoying the shit out of myself. It doesn't help that my job requires no brain power whatsoever and all these thoughts are just constantly spiraling in my head. And a shrink told me I have obsessive thoughts, pfft! If she picked through trash for a living I'd bet she'd obsess over a more exciting existence too!
So, in conclusion if someone could make all life altering decisions for me from now on it would be very helpful.
Also this is what my mug currently looks like, haven't shown it much lately, should probably do something about that soon.
So here's Super ValGal (super happy, that is)

And just plain old regular ValGal (note the glasses are in place therefore no one will ever know she is super ValGal by night)

Til next time