I posted this to my Instagram but I wanted to share it here with my SG family also, because all of you have been super supportive on my journey so far. I guess this also encompasses this weeks blog homework too, which I want to get back into doing regularly. @missy @rambo @sean
New Years Eve was one of my worst mental health days in a while, I spent the day hiding and crying on and off. Waking up on New Year’s Day I didn’t feel much better, I was struggling to push myself out of the darkness, but I managed to get myself out of bed, shower, put a little makeup on, do my hair and get dressed, which I feel is a genuine achievement.
My mental and physical health have not been great over the last year and it’s time to start looking after myself. To try and make myself healthier and stronger both mentally and physically. To start pushing myself beyond my comfort zone, testing my boundaries and facing my fears and anxiety.
So today marks the start of a new year and the beginning of a new journey for me. I’m not one for New Years resolutions, I think for the most part they are easy to break and make excuses for, so this is not a New Years resolution but an endeavour to make a positive change in my life.
This photo is the first step in making myself accountable for myself, this is me not posed, not filtered, a little makeup cause the pimples are real today, at 118kgs/261lbs which is the heaviest I’ve ever been. I am not setting a weight loss goal or giving myself a time frame to complete this but my goal is to push myself everyday to be better. I know it will be a struggle and I know there will be set backs but as long as I keep pushing I will get where I need to be.
Thanks for reading if you made it this far. Happy New Year all, whatever goals you have, you can do them you just have to push yourself. I hope 2018 is amazing at least in some way for everyone, let’s make the most of a new start.
Peace, Love and Polka Dots ✌🏻
Valentine xx
