vadinmuur

Someone help me out here................................So part of my life is amazing and perfect, mainly the career side. However, my love life seems to always take serious dives. My ex girlfriend who breaks up with me not even a week after she was like " I want to be married to you" decided to tell me some of the factors for breaking up with me is because one we were dealing with a long distance relationship and there was some chemistry between her in this guy out where she was working, and two because she scared herself with the whole marriage thing. Come to find out she claims to still be in love with me, but got attached to her summer fuck buddy ( who by sleeping with her cheated on his girlfriend) this is like a bad fucking soap opera. "I am in love with you, but i still have feelings for this guy i fucked for a month, who has a girlfriend and wants nothing to do with me in the relationship capacity." Fidelity issues much???? All I can say is what the fuck and I can't talk about this with anyone because she is friends with them ALL!!!! I just don't understand women, this is a plea for help on what to do because im at a loss. She seems sincere about the whole loving me part because she sucks at lying she has too many tell signs. This girl is like one of my best friends in the world thats why when we got together it was amazing. She claims i did nothing wrong which i believe, but at the same time there is a secondary history there i don't think she has forgiven me for. We dated when she was 15 and I was 19 and I ended it because at the time it wasn't right....i loved her then and it broke my heart to do it but it wasn't right. Now that shes on the brink of 21 and after almost a year together, im more than confused and this blog is sounding more and more like jibberish. But, I know i broke her heart back then and I really don't think she has gotten over that and maybe there is a mental block there. Whenever she gets to close to me again she runs before i have a chance to hurt again maybe? I dunno someone help!