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I told him no contact none, it lasted 3 days before he turnt up at my house trying to hug me and tell me how much he missed "fucking" me. Made me laugh. Cos in a very short time, well since i posted i have begun to let go.
Next point..is there such thing as a man that can only look at one woman, only want her, only love her..i mean it seems all guys biologically just want to mate because thats how they are, and it annoys me. As a female i feel used. Even sitting in class, the boys, young as they are, all they talk about is sex and other girls bodies, boobs etc.
I just want someone to love me, just me, all of me, and i am afraid i will never find that.
I dont want him. I still love him , yes..but we are on completely different levels.

Seen surgeon today about back, said wanted to operate in matter of weeks, then found out i was a smoker and an anorexic and said, see you in three months, stop smoking and maintain your weight, and all i thought was how much weight can i lose in 3 months. This eating disorder is ruining my life AGAIN, must fight.harder.

Here, have a picture.