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Ive been having a few chest pains, tightness also.Im scared. Im seeing my Doctor on Monday however, so will ask him to organize an ECG and such. Its probably just my anxiety, and the fact ive been smoking a wee bit more.(Cigarettes that is). Tomorrow, it will be three weeks since i last smoked pot. Ive done rather well i believe


Tonight im at my parents, going to play The Sims Finally found the disc..thought i had lost it. I really want the newer versions. Im still playing the original.Ha.

My weight is the same. I feel kind of angered by this. I felt i ate too much yesterday, and i exercised so much last night..I hate scales. Fuck i just wish i didnt have to weigh myself.



Edit I awoke at 4am this morning,feeling disorientated, and what do you know panic central. It was pretty bad, i ate part of a pear, that didnt calm me, i got up ,managed to make it to the living room, shaking, dizzy,thinking im dying, and find my pills and pop one. 2 minutes later im fine. God i need those pills at times like that. But my doc is going to stop prescribing them, what am i going to do then. I cannot control these panic attacks, they take over me so badly physically. I cant handle it, its so fucking scary,