Everyone should go to this link and vote for me..
http://www.inkedmag.com/promotions/inkedgirl/gallery/
Thatd be totally saweet !
In other news, ive been a bit stressed, ive lost more weight, about 1.5kgs in the last week.I feel terrible, ive been lying to my boyfriend, telling him ive in fact gained weight. I have definately cut back on my exercising, but obviously thats not enough, i thought id been eating more, i thought maybe i wasnt going to lose weight...i thought wrong. I dont know how i feel, Anorexia is over the moon, because its winning..and me..the real me..im scared. Im slowly dying..slowly fading.My body aches, my joints are fucked...ive had a headache for two weeks. Ugh.
When will this lonely road end..
I think im shooting in about a weeks time. This will be my last attempt, im thinking of applying for "other" sites...maybe. If i were to give up my hopeful status i would keep a membership here, because i do love this place and the people, i just dont know if this is the site for me to model for anymore. We will see.
http://www.inkedmag.com/promotions/inkedgirl/gallery/
Thatd be totally saweet !
In other news, ive been a bit stressed, ive lost more weight, about 1.5kgs in the last week.I feel terrible, ive been lying to my boyfriend, telling him ive in fact gained weight. I have definately cut back on my exercising, but obviously thats not enough, i thought id been eating more, i thought maybe i wasnt going to lose weight...i thought wrong. I dont know how i feel, Anorexia is over the moon, because its winning..and me..the real me..im scared. Im slowly dying..slowly fading.My body aches, my joints are fucked...ive had a headache for two weeks. Ugh.
When will this lonely road end..
I think im shooting in about a weeks time. This will be my last attempt, im thinking of applying for "other" sites...maybe. If i were to give up my hopeful status i would keep a membership here, because i do love this place and the people, i just dont know if this is the site for me to model for anymore. We will see.
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2-12=Feb. 12 - that's how we abbreviate the date in the States. Anyway, the doctor told me to go to the emergency room and I didn't.
And...maybe I shouldn't have written it in a blog. I feel kind of silly. My anxiety meds made me open up a bit too much.
For the purely cardiac issues I can go to the ER with the insurance I have, and a few clinics may take it. It's crazy how that works. Sicko, indeed.
I love you, too, and I don't want you to worry about me, please, please, please.
Now that some backup cat people have replied I'm going to revise the blog and delete all comments (after pasting them to a doc. for reference and safe keeping).