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Time for an update ..

Again i want to thank everyone who has left delightful comments on my set, keep em coming kids...So i know this set isnt going to go live, and thats okay with me, because im happy with my attempt, and it was the first time ive worked with an actual photogrpaher...so more practice then ill bring more out. Its difficult though, we have no staff togs and shit over here, so i dont have quite the advantage as other girls, so that means i have to work extra hard, but hey i enjoy a good challenge.

So i had therapy this week, first time ive been in over a year. My weight is still dropping..i am under 100 pounds, and i am sick...i am exhausted, my heart is beating abnormally and i get scared, but you know..i just cant stop. The therapist wants me to see a med doctor weekly as she is very concerned about my physical health..i am too, but not that concerned..just scared.
I broke down last night in my bfs arms, hes scared. He thinks im going to die, maybe i will, maybe i wont...dont get me wrong shit i dont want to die, but this disorder has taken over my life once again. My weight hasnt been this low since i got out of hospital nearly 5 years ago...so it is all a tad worrying.

I have an exam in 2 weeks and a big lab report due next week,so i am a little stressed..
Excuse the rambling. I dont talk much about my E.D to friends/family so i guess online is my solace...i dont know anyone on here personally so its okay for me to talk, well thats how i see it.