vacio

Its almost time for your set to go up! I'm excited, and I know you are too. Sorry I didn't respond earlier, this semester is kicking my ass somewhat. I miss talkin with you, but hate the slow back and forth of the blog comments, you know? I wish you didn't live on the other side of the world so we could at least talk from time to time.

I completely relate to hating change! I do make exceptions for change that I select in order to improve something that's not working as well as I'd like. Every decision has its benefits and its drawbacks and rarely do we have an option that is close to ideal in every way, so what you decide depends on your personal, subjective preferences. The dog would go to whomever can give him the best life. If that guides you, you will feel as good as the situation allows. Anyway, only you know when it's time to give up on the guy, and no amount of strength can ever make it easy or painless, but separate worlds doesn't sound like too intimate or comfortable an environment to me.

You don't have to be aware of it to possess great strength, believe me. You are not the only anorexic I know ( just the only one I think about every minute) so I understand that there is always ambivalence about giving it up that comes with the territory. The main prerequisites to success in anything are desire and a belief that you can succeed, so it's up to you ultimately. Does it really seem likely that you, alone, are so deficient in some crucial way that you can't find happiness or self-worth without the spectre of death looming and all those around you needing to accept it? You're a wonderful soul in spite of this stuff, as I see it, not because of it. I'm guessing a few people have said that!

Love you!