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Hello hello hello

Time for another update i feel. I have been rather absent around here and i do apoligize, its just when i get so stuck in this eating disorder i isolate myself..even from my internet friends..weird i know,.but its part and parcel of dealing with this illness, so i am TRYING to be more social...its hard when all you want to do is curl up in bed and put a fist into your starving belly to stop it from rumbling...

Anyway things are alright, i really need to stop this weightloss, im getting hollow, i love it but i fucking hate it at the same time..i really dont want to dedicate another whole post to this, but honestly...this is the only thing i care about in life right now, losing weight, exercising and restricting...okay so maybe i exaggerated a little, i do care about other things,obviously, but this one thing is consuming me.

Work is good, apart from the fact that its a gym..very triggering..

I am going to make myself go out tonight..my brothers band is playing..right...this is going to be a mission..

Take care kids and have a saweeet weekend !