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To tell the truth, im struggling..struggling with my eating disorder again..ive lost a large amount of weight in the past month and im getting a bit scared now..this morning at work i made myself sick, i exercised until things started getting black..i dont know what the fuck im playing at.
Im scared of food and what it might do to me, im living off salads,liquids and fruit..
I feel so pulled in by my anorexia right now...when is it ever going to stop, when is this ever going to leave me alone..im tired of fighting...