I have something to admit...well not admit but discuss.
Obviously im un-happy with my appearance, hence the eating disorders and self abuse...and lately it has all been heightened, theres just so many beautiful people in the world, and i really dont feel as if im one of those people.
A survey done in New Zealand on NZ woman showed only 2% of the population considered themselves to be beautiful, i really think thats sad, but i most definately can relate to that 98%.
Ever since i was just a young girl i wanted to be blonde and blue eyed with dark skin and a awesome body..
Like her, fuck shes hot..people like her make me feel so fucking ugly and disgusting.
Or her.....
I feel so in-adequate when i look at woman like this...
I just had to get that off my chest..and shit i know i shouldnt compare myself to others and all of that but its just so difficult..
I think im feeling like this quite intensely is because of the comment my bfs friend made ..shit like that just really gets to me..
Went for a bikeride this afternoon, freezed me ass off...am working on trying to look after myself..yes..why? because id love to look more like those girls above..
Obviously im un-happy with my appearance, hence the eating disorders and self abuse...and lately it has all been heightened, theres just so many beautiful people in the world, and i really dont feel as if im one of those people.
A survey done in New Zealand on NZ woman showed only 2% of the population considered themselves to be beautiful, i really think thats sad, but i most definately can relate to that 98%.
Ever since i was just a young girl i wanted to be blonde and blue eyed with dark skin and a awesome body..
Like her, fuck shes hot..people like her make me feel so fucking ugly and disgusting.
Or her.....
I feel so in-adequate when i look at woman like this...
I just had to get that off my chest..and shit i know i shouldnt compare myself to others and all of that but its just so difficult..
I think im feeling like this quite intensely is because of the comment my bfs friend made ..shit like that just really gets to me..
Went for a bikeride this afternoon, freezed me ass off...am working on trying to look after myself..yes..why? because id love to look more like those girls above..
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vvmartini:
thx sweetheart you made me feel better.And Doll you are not ugly at all those girls are just makeup,silicone,and fake tan.You are naturally GORGEOUS.
true_love:
Easier sed than done but you gotta recognize you're beauty. We're beautifully unique such is this path of life and the endeavour of self love. Without self love what can we share. Always endeavour.