Update: Thank you babygirl so much for the gift membership!

I so have no idea what is going on in my life.
I am lost looking for happiness.
Can anyone tell me where to find it?
I have been going nuts on the inside the past week or more.
I want to let it all out but have no one who will listen.
I want to make changes in my life, but dont know what changes or how to start changing.
The truths of life are falling on me like raindrops in a hurricane.
And I just want to cope.
I just want to be happy.
The razorblade cuts just dont seem to bleed like they used to.
The things that used to make me happy don't anymore, or are gone.
Where is MY happiness?