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I almost posted all of this into a thread. Only the parts before the dashed line made it but I wanted to say the rest somewhere. Here it is! It's kinda long so if you're pressed for time, it's okay to skip it.


I second ffmoking. I have just three female friends that are great conversation and fun to be around. If they are having hard times or problems or whatever, I'll be extra nice too. Grab a dinner, make a drive, burn a CD, or whatever. It's just money, or it's just 45 minutes in traffic, or it's just a pack of CD's from the electronics store. F*** it. It makes her smile, and happy and feel special, as the aforementioned poster states. A smile is worth it, and for me, just to know they're happy. I have no motive to try and bed anyone or anything, it's just a good feeling to make someone happy like that. I enjoy affecting a life. It's a neat-o feeling.

Hmm... I'll admit. I try to stay away from things when it's a true blur too. I guess it depends on how well you know the person.

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Now my contribution to this thread...

I am sorta seeing someone right now. Fairly regularly. I work odd days off and she's got weekends so we piece time together. Text each other ALL the time. I'm glad my sidekick has unlimited msgs. LOL. Anyway, we've kissed. And spent a night together cuddling and enjoying the company of each other (but nothing sexual). I've gotten messages thanking me for spending the night like that and being the 'protector'. Also texts for how much she appreciates what I do for her and the like. Wow that's weird. I've NEVER had that. Anyway, I get lots of sweet messages, I'm betting she doesn't think they're sweet but to me... And this is of course, not to mention the killer massages I can give! Hehe. Anyway, we recently got back from San Diego for a weekend. Just to get away from stuff. She's been a great friend and I think if I let myself I could easily trip and fall for her. We have kissed right, and she more or less invited me to do it, and occasionally I'll get a 'babe' or 'hun' in a response. I am bad at hints and things gone unsaid so I'm afraid to kiss her again without total permission. I have this underlying fear I'll lose both a great friend and a possible g/f. I know, how cowardly eh? I can't even make a move. Is that bad?! I can only hope to have someone like her. She's honest, friendly, enjoyable, happy, and thoughtful. She's one of the only people in my life that can accept me for me. I'm not afraid with her. And I think she's just soooo pretty. I'm a total sucker for her smile and her eyes. They change color and no matter what color.... I just get lost in those damn things! Not to mention she's a cutie in a pair of glasses. Hehe. I guess I didn't need the thread Meeting Sweet Nerdy Girls. I found one. Just not sure what the hell to do! Growl.

So that's my blured line. I don't know how to advance this army and not destory the troops. What makes it hard is that I think she may have gotten let go from work due to downsizing. I let her know I'm here for her, and she just needs her 'me' time. Which is fine. I guess it just means I can't mention any of this till it smooths over. /sigh

Okay well, I'm still happy and thrilled about 'us', just scared right now. I'm having feelings I can't cope with too well because I don't really have them. So for now, this thread-turned-blog is getting posted and I'm going to start pissing the night away because my flatmate just bought us some more Jack for the Coke. G'night all!