Today I put lover on a plane to a far-away land. He'll be gone a long time, and the time spent away from me is time spent with an old flame. We've rarely been separated since the first night we met. Our daily lives are so entwined that I'm unsure how to go about mine now-- it can only hurt that my basic faculties abandoned me in anticipation of (and following) his departure. My head, stomach, and heart are at constant unease; if I can sleep tonight it will be the result of exhaustion.
At first I was suspicious, jealous-- dismayed, even-- as a result of his plans. He won me over with explanations, extenuating circumstances, and displays of his love. Today he relayed his own fears, which were more hurtful and unsettling than my own. Now I wait, my trust profoundly shaken (but not shattered), through what will likely be a silent and uncertain few days until we can communicate again.
Spirits are down and mood is confused. I don't want to be alone, but my unease makes me a poor companion.
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On another note, the Macquarium that Mark and I were working on is finally up and working! There are a few small things to add later, but for now work is complete. Unfortunately, my new fish (a violet beta-fish) Doctor Manhattan was too shy to appear on camera, but here are a few pictures of it anyway, minus fish:
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Whoa. I just realized there is a spot in the profile for wishlists now! I wonder if anyone's is longer than mine?
At first I was suspicious, jealous-- dismayed, even-- as a result of his plans. He won me over with explanations, extenuating circumstances, and displays of his love. Today he relayed his own fears, which were more hurtful and unsettling than my own. Now I wait, my trust profoundly shaken (but not shattered), through what will likely be a silent and uncertain few days until we can communicate again.
Spirits are down and mood is confused. I don't want to be alone, but my unease makes me a poor companion.
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On another note, the Macquarium that Mark and I were working on is finally up and working! There are a few small things to add later, but for now work is complete. Unfortunately, my new fish (a violet beta-fish) Doctor Manhattan was too shy to appear on camera, but here are a few pictures of it anyway, minus fish:
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Whoa. I just realized there is a spot in the profile for wishlists now! I wonder if anyone's is longer than mine?
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max16characters:
Weird...me talking about the peace corp and you boy going to see his ex who's in the peace corp. I can see why you're so upset over it. I guess he's got his reasons...but still. I'm sure it'll all work out in the end.
zombimonkee:
Aww... sorry to hear you are so down... yeah I doubt this month will be very enjoyable for you. You better cheer up... or at least get fucked up enough to think you are happy. Heh~ so that is the completed Macquarium. Definitely looks fun. You should try feedin' the fish Vicadin, I hear they like it.