user209834982

Doing everything blind
always need a guide
Someone to make your excuse
Needing someone
To hold your hand
It's always easier when you don't
Need to take the blame
Admitting to something you did,
Just ain't in your capacity
Nothing is easy
But you're telling lies
To place to blame
On someone else


my family is kinda fucked up. i mean, not in a serious illegal things went on in the house kinda way, but just that fact that none of us really like each other all that much. no one gets along. i really can't stand my oldest sister much at all, and my other sister and my father fight constantly. blah.

so the job hunt is going alright. i have 2 interviews wednesday, although i think i'm going to skip out on the one that has to do with selling cutco junk. no knives for me thanks.

i've been neglecting my laundry and dishes for way too long, although tonight i need to study for my last bio test (aside from finals).

i've been feeling really odd lately, like i'm ready either to be obnoxious until people start paying more attention to me, or completely withdraw from everyone and become entirely antisocial. more than likely, i'll do the second. i don't know, i feel like i'm searching for something, and i think i need to fix myself this time instead of relying on other people.



i'm going to cry tonight, i can feel it coming. there's too much going on in my head.

question of the day:
what's the last thing that licked you?
(my cat obsessively licks my arms when i'm typing, its really annoying)



edit - thanks josh, for talking to me tonight, i needed a friend.