i wish there was a way to apologize.
i made a very, very stupid mistake a long time ago and hurt someone very badly. even though they say they have forgiven me, i still don't really believe it. things will never, ever be the same between us. not that either of are are the same people we were when we were 17, or that i... Read More
goddamn it. my back is doing that pain spazm thing again. someone please come rub me.
while riding in the car today, amoungst all the lovely pennsylvania roadkill, i saw an opossum. that made me think about how i have never seen a live one. i also started thinking abpout the word "opossum". say it! possum, possum, possum, possum, possum, possum! i don't actually say... Read More
if you decide to come up our way let me know and i'll put something (ie: party, outing, event) together for you. and maybe i could also help you find a place to stay.
i had to write a story for my creative thinking class. i haven;t written anything for a long time, so i kinda just recalled something in my life and tried to make it into a story type dealy..so here it is (its kinda long):
i went to the south side for the first time since i've been 21. i spent some time in the smiling moose, and watched some local bands... i really miss being in a band. i also fell in love every five minutes. i really need to get out more often so i can meet people.
i spent the night at my coworker's boyfriend's place.... Read More
I saw a dude at Nakama the other night with a sketch pad and a pencil. He was circulating the bar, and sketching women in an effort to pick them up. As a distant observer from the sushi bar, I thought that was really lame. So how would you take it if he came up to you in a bar, and wanted to sketch you?
I love being able to connect with other artists like that. It's great to share a connection with another creative person. This guy was very obviously trying to pick up ladies, though. That's what bothered me, I guess. It was like art for evil, or something. What a creep.
Oh, Officer Kittie. I am a habitual criminal. As such, and in the interests of public safety, I think you should detain, restrain and interrogate me forthwith. Oh yes.
-that my memory is so strongly linked to smell. that ever so often something wafts through the air and makes me sad because of the memories it brings to mind.
-that deep down i am still hoping to have him show up on my porch, tearings streaming, begging for forgiveness. i know it won't happen. and i also know that i... Read More
you know what I do when I feel like all of that for awhile...I say fuck all that and realize I'm way stronger than all that static. You're down now so you're concentrating on the negative. Everyone does embarressing shit, everyone gets heart broken and you can move on. It sucks now but you'll be over it soon enough. And what you did yesterday can be fixed by what you do today and tomorrow. Try not to sweat too much what you did in the past. You're not the same person and I assume you're learning and trying to do better. People will see that. Also I'm turning 26 in a few weeks and only in the last 6 months have i felt like I'm finally finding my place. I have a good job paying good money for the first time in my life. Some people find that shit right off the bat and some of us take a little bit of time but it comes. Just be persistant in the face of adversity. I can't tell you how much joy I've taken out of rising to the occasion and overcoming despite what other people say or how daunting the situation is.
sooo...
today was the longest day ever.
i couldn't sleep weel, i kept waking up for no reason. i couldn't tell if sophie was calling me, or if i was just dreaming it. i got up at 7, was at work by 9. i got off of work at 5. i went to target...i was supposed to buy contact solution but i ended up buying... Read More
wow i meet all your criteria except for 2: one I'm a fat whiteboy and two I only have 2 tattoos. I love watching cartoons with my 2 kids (so yes i like kids)
instead i shall provide you all with my newly found requirements for a boyfriend:
i want :
a skinny boy, preferably with tons of tattoos
with a big penis
who doesn't do any drugs
has a job
who likes kids cuz i have one
and that likes to read
and watches cartoons and standup comedy
who... Read More
Don't worry about all of it...these things always happen for a reason. You will find a guy when you are least expecting it and he will love you for you.
All you can do is continue on with your life. He will move and and you will move on.
The most important thing is the little one, and she will be fine.
pskank