Hey @missy @lyxzen @rambo , long time since I did a homework ! I've been busy with my electronic music band lately, we gave two concerts in Paris in two weeks and it asked a lot of preparation. I had to manage it with my school and jobs, all together... It wasn't easy but now I have the time to write because... Well, I'm homesick T_T
This topic you gave lately is very timely in my model life because I just received so many photos of shooting from very different photographs. And it's my first "birthday" as a model in April. As I tidy it up in a file with sub-files by photographer in my computer, I saw the number of sub-files growing up this month... Let's check it !
I'll go back in time in the course of photos (attention, guaranteed observation of capillary evolution!)
This photo by Morgana Fata was taken in October and I just received it, I was waiting for it so much you can't imagine. This photograph is a famous (in the world of the photographs and models in France) selfportraitist and portraitist in general. Her work is really dark and tortured. It was my first photosession related to fetish. This lingual bondage also aimed at making me drool, Morgana gave me salt to help to drool.. Actually it was funny to do ! She was really kind and seemed to think that I couldn't do such a thing but it was totally ok for me.
I'm not SO fan of this argentic photo by Vincent Bernard as a picture, but I like it because for once in my photos I look more like myself even if I'm not sooo beautiful of what. It's my bf who told me that and I totally agree. I could go to school with this make up, this style... I can say that I'm engaged in Queer culture and my first way to be involved is my outfit. I loved glitters and big eyebrows since always, sometime I cross dress, and even if it can be hard sometimes I watch people reactions in the street. Some are unexpectedly nice, other are rough, but I really think that my appearance is my first way to send messages.
This photo taken by @tallica is so beautiful and delicate. Maybe I could have chosen another photo of our session together but what I feel the same about my fav pics of this shooting : the mini me, unconfortable with her body and her face, always trying to fix her supposed ugliness and questionning her evolving "feminity" (I've been in this state of mind from 9 to 13 approximatively, I even thought my life would be easier if I dressed only as a cis boy) would have been so pleased and reassured to see this picture of her 10 years later. Like a message : "Don't panic, live the way you want, it'll be ok girl."
I had this photo in profile picture on SG for a long time ! This Photomaton had been shot be Patrick Cockpit during the last summer. This man is incredibly cool and kind. He's a famous photograph in Paris: almost every model had been shot by him ! He invites the model to have fun, to behave the way they want, he's not sexualizing us (and how many does ?) and he's really creative. I had myself the idea of the dots. When I saw this photo I was like Wow I'm as badass as a punk Marylin Monroe ! I gave the paper version to my bf.
The result of this photosession is so neat. We worked for hours on it with my friend Cassandre who shot it.
Those two photos are the only I have of me and my boyfriend kissing. I made a gif with it. Cassandre shot it the same day. He was here and helped us during the shooting.
Of course I'm very proud of my debut set Arty Show shot by my BF. I wasn't expected such a photographic quality because he NEVER shot anything before (!) I couldn't begin in a better way on SuicideGirls and we had so much fun shooting this set.
And to finish, two pictures of my childhood :
I don't know how old I was on those photos, 6 and 7 I guess. Those photos are really funny and cute, but what I like the most about it is that today i'm still painting and playing electronic music ;)
What a retrospective topic :')
Thanks for reading guys !
XOXO
Hildegarde
