Grateful. I'm grateful for everyone's company. I love it. I love being replied to and talked to. I don't care if any of you are naked or fully clothed. I just want the company so my loneliness doesn't kill me inside.
Spiteful. I hate being left alone. It makes me hate people so much. I get so angry about it. Or upset. It brings me to tears to think I'm not good enough to even talk to.
I feel this way towards the same people. Both of these. I'm so happy when people are there but I'm so upset when those same people aren't. So that is why this is a double edged sword because my personality both loves and hates everyone who is there.