This is my first journal ever. Not just here. Cool beans. I am going Saturday to get my tattoo on my chest, saweet. This chick is going with me which is cool, cause I guess I didn't want to go alone. I am getting her belly button pierced for her. Hopefully she will bring her (and my) friend, Kristie. She wont answer her damn e-mail. I am trying to get xtra buff before going, but you know how it is. It's not like it will matter. I am already trying to get tone, but now I just feel like I have a little motivation (not to look like a scrawny bitch in front of two beautiful chicks). Interesting. Would I feel the same if it were somone I was not attracted to? Probably not. But that's the way the world works, right? People get by on thire looks. Pretty people are high-class and good looking so they get with other good looking people and have good looking kids who grow up in a high class enviroment. Low class people have low class jobs and not so pretty kids who grow up in a bad enviroment and become what their parents are. Pretty people who are born in low class enviroments get taken advantage of and used. I guess this isn't true for everyone.
Work sucked. Work was ok. I tried to get Kristie a job but they didn't offer her enough. It's all about the dollar, right? I still haven't told them she's a "dancer". That's her business. If she wants them to know, she will tell them. I only asked her to because she had the computer skills. I got really drunk last weekend and asked this stripper if she wanted any head. It wasn't really a good idea. I think she thought I was joking, which is good, because if I weren't drinking, I wouldn't have asked her (or anyone) that.
And I think that's my Q to leave. Taco Bell isn't sitting too good tonight, but what else is open? The restaurant at the corner where my crush works? I can't go back there. They will all point and laugh. He asked her out! HA! Let's all point and laugh! *points and laughs* fuckers. Maybe it's the other way around. Maybe they are pointing at her and saying You turned HIM down? Oh yhea. That happened. I guess it's just as farfetched as the latter.
Spending my life either alone or with only one person sure hasn't helped my social life. Even when I was with her....I was alone. Am I telling myself that so it will be easier? Did I really have what I wanted? Too many lies. Too many drugs. It takes TWO to make a relationship to work.
Cute. Am I cute? The chicks seem to think so. Who wants to be with cute? Cute is something your aunt calls you, not your girlfriend. Your girlfriend calls you fucking sexy. So how do you find out? how do you know when someone is not seeing anyone? Chicks should wear a sign. A big fat hey im single sign. Only cute guys apply within. Well after I am threw Bringin' on the Heartache, I guess I will go push it to the max. My boss says if you can bench your weight you are doing good. I can bench a little more than 20 over mine, so I guess i'm getting there. Starting to see the results. Damnit, now I have to finish the Photograph. I don't want your....I don't need your.....
Fuck it. Will anyone read this? Would I want them to? Hmmm. Does it matter? Would I ever meet them? Who knows. I know this, because Tyler knows this.
Work sucked. Work was ok. I tried to get Kristie a job but they didn't offer her enough. It's all about the dollar, right? I still haven't told them she's a "dancer". That's her business. If she wants them to know, she will tell them. I only asked her to because she had the computer skills. I got really drunk last weekend and asked this stripper if she wanted any head. It wasn't really a good idea. I think she thought I was joking, which is good, because if I weren't drinking, I wouldn't have asked her (or anyone) that.
And I think that's my Q to leave. Taco Bell isn't sitting too good tonight, but what else is open? The restaurant at the corner where my crush works? I can't go back there. They will all point and laugh. He asked her out! HA! Let's all point and laugh! *points and laughs* fuckers. Maybe it's the other way around. Maybe they are pointing at her and saying You turned HIM down? Oh yhea. That happened. I guess it's just as farfetched as the latter.
Spending my life either alone or with only one person sure hasn't helped my social life. Even when I was with her....I was alone. Am I telling myself that so it will be easier? Did I really have what I wanted? Too many lies. Too many drugs. It takes TWO to make a relationship to work.
Cute. Am I cute? The chicks seem to think so. Who wants to be with cute? Cute is something your aunt calls you, not your girlfriend. Your girlfriend calls you fucking sexy. So how do you find out? how do you know when someone is not seeing anyone? Chicks should wear a sign. A big fat hey im single sign. Only cute guys apply within. Well after I am threw Bringin' on the Heartache, I guess I will go push it to the max. My boss says if you can bench your weight you are doing good. I can bench a little more than 20 over mine, so I guess i'm getting there. Starting to see the results. Damnit, now I have to finish the Photograph. I don't want your....I don't need your.....
Fuck it. Will anyone read this? Would I want them to? Hmmm. Does it matter? Would I ever meet them? Who knows. I know this, because Tyler knows this.