ugh. I actually know this will be a dreadful failure. But see, I am learning, this need not be a bad thing. Because time, relentlessly, marches forward. And we have no control. We are but little vessels on an endless ocean. With the massive waves, and the endless currents. We are, and that is all.
My philosophy has become one of 'radical acceptance'. No guilt, no shaming, no blame, no pointing fingers. Nobody did anything bad, ever. And I mean ever. Nobody ever did anything good, and I mean that truly ever. Things just happen. And if we let go of the desire to point fingers.
Then maybe, there is hope.