Jeff called me tonight. He asked if he could come over for a little bit. I knew what I had to do. I knew I had to break up with him, because I wasn't happy. A part of me knew he was feeling the same way.
He walks in and sits on the couch next to me. He has this look on his face, and I know Jeff, I knew something was wrong. I asked what was up. He said, "Are you happy with how things are going with us?" And I said that I wasn't. He then gave me this look, and I nodded and said, "I already know what's coming...I was thinking the same thing." He proceeded to say how it sucks, because he didn't want it to come down to this, but he knew it wasn't fair to either of us and he knew I wasn't happy. He said that he had so much fun being with me, especially when he didn't have school and his movies, but now he has almost no time. I believe him. I know for a fact that he doesn't have ANY time. I just wish this wouldn't have been an issue. I wanted to cry, but I didn't. I hate breakups...but I'd have to say that this was the best breakup I have ever experienced. I liked him a lot, but I knew that I wasn't happy and I had to look out for #1. So basically we had both been thinking about this for a while now, but tonight was the only time we could actually do this alone...face to face. Neither one of us wanted to do it on the phone.
After all of that we sat for about an hour just talking...like old friends...like we used to do when he would come over and we would watch movies.
Then as he was leaving I gave him the v-day card that I had originally bought him. He apologized again that it had to end this way. He said that he didn't want me to think that he stopped caring and stopping liking me, because he didn't. Then we hugged. He held me tight, and I wanted to cry. He said he wanted me to go to his show on Wednesday, and I still might. I was debating whether or not to go, especially after tonight...but things went smooth.
I just got a text message from him...
Jeff: "I'm really sorry things turned out as they did and since we got along so well I'd like to think we could at least be friends if that would be ok with you. I hope taht I haven't hurt you badly because I never wanted that at all. Hopefully I'll see you on Wednesday."
I cried when I got the text messages from him. There is going to be a lot of stuff I'm going to miss about him. I really enjoyed holding him.
a part of me feels relieved though...like this was supposed to happen. I think for once in my life I actually feel like I made the right decision for me. It's not a terrific feeling, but it was a feeling caused by a decision that I had made on my own.
Jeff is really amazing. Deep down I hope we try this again sometime in the future.
On a different note, check out my pics...I added some...including my new tattoo!
He walks in and sits on the couch next to me. He has this look on his face, and I know Jeff, I knew something was wrong. I asked what was up. He said, "Are you happy with how things are going with us?" And I said that I wasn't. He then gave me this look, and I nodded and said, "I already know what's coming...I was thinking the same thing." He proceeded to say how it sucks, because he didn't want it to come down to this, but he knew it wasn't fair to either of us and he knew I wasn't happy. He said that he had so much fun being with me, especially when he didn't have school and his movies, but now he has almost no time. I believe him. I know for a fact that he doesn't have ANY time. I just wish this wouldn't have been an issue. I wanted to cry, but I didn't. I hate breakups...but I'd have to say that this was the best breakup I have ever experienced. I liked him a lot, but I knew that I wasn't happy and I had to look out for #1. So basically we had both been thinking about this for a while now, but tonight was the only time we could actually do this alone...face to face. Neither one of us wanted to do it on the phone.
After all of that we sat for about an hour just talking...like old friends...like we used to do when he would come over and we would watch movies.
Then as he was leaving I gave him the v-day card that I had originally bought him. He apologized again that it had to end this way. He said that he didn't want me to think that he stopped caring and stopping liking me, because he didn't. Then we hugged. He held me tight, and I wanted to cry. He said he wanted me to go to his show on Wednesday, and I still might. I was debating whether or not to go, especially after tonight...but things went smooth.
I just got a text message from him...
Jeff: "I'm really sorry things turned out as they did and since we got along so well I'd like to think we could at least be friends if that would be ok with you. I hope taht I haven't hurt you badly because I never wanted that at all. Hopefully I'll see you on Wednesday."
I cried when I got the text messages from him. There is going to be a lot of stuff I'm going to miss about him. I really enjoyed holding him.
a part of me feels relieved though...like this was supposed to happen. I think for once in my life I actually feel like I made the right decision for me. It's not a terrific feeling, but it was a feeling caused by a decision that I had made on my own.
Jeff is really amazing. Deep down I hope we try this again sometime in the future.
On a different note, check out my pics...I added some...including my new tattoo!
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there was a party afterward, but i didn't go as i'm still on antibiotics so the whole drinking thing is a no-go for me at the moment.
i hope you had a good night just the same. i'm sure i'll see you soon
I'm a huge F13 fan(named my company after my favorite Friday character)and have probably watched the first 6 at least 20 times each. I'm a little obsessed with them, lol. I've even been able to get autographs from some of the actors from the series. I'd love to make a good old-fashioned Slasher like that sometime.