Wow.. have I ever had a busy week.
In the hopes of bettering my overall situation I've been attending a program at the General Hospital called the Day Program.
It's basically a group support thing with nurses giving very informal lectures on coping skills for various situations.
The group is good I think, lots of positive info from the staff and the people there with me help to remind me that I'm not the only one dealing with this shit.
I guess I've done very little to explain what's going on with me.
Let's call it a nasty bout of depression mixed with moments of paralyzing anxiety.
All of which expanded to the current levels by the ADD running amok with my head.
I'm on a few antidepressants and stuff, but nothing has gotten better as of yet.
This group thing is promissing though, it seems to be giving me the hope and motivation I need to do some cleaning up in my life. Very needed cleaning up.
I've made many mistakes over the years due to the depression and stuff, only now to find out that with the type of ADD I have it's likely a permanent condition of saddness. Never extreme but always there. Not an easy thing to accept.
On the bright side, it's taken 23 years to start figuring out what's really going on in my head, but at least I know now. I still have a lot of time to build the life I'd like for myself.
Well, as a wise young woman once suggested, I'm taking the options I have and doing my best to pimp them out, as it were.
So far so good, let's see what I do with next week.
In the hopes of bettering my overall situation I've been attending a program at the General Hospital called the Day Program.
It's basically a group support thing with nurses giving very informal lectures on coping skills for various situations.
The group is good I think, lots of positive info from the staff and the people there with me help to remind me that I'm not the only one dealing with this shit.
I guess I've done very little to explain what's going on with me.
Let's call it a nasty bout of depression mixed with moments of paralyzing anxiety.
All of which expanded to the current levels by the ADD running amok with my head.
I'm on a few antidepressants and stuff, but nothing has gotten better as of yet.
This group thing is promissing though, it seems to be giving me the hope and motivation I need to do some cleaning up in my life. Very needed cleaning up.
I've made many mistakes over the years due to the depression and stuff, only now to find out that with the type of ADD I have it's likely a permanent condition of saddness. Never extreme but always there. Not an easy thing to accept.
On the bright side, it's taken 23 years to start figuring out what's really going on in my head, but at least I know now. I still have a lot of time to build the life I'd like for myself.
Well, as a wise young woman once suggested, I'm taking the options I have and doing my best to pimp them out, as it were.
So far so good, let's see what I do with next week.
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like they tell the drunks, just take it one day at a time. its too much pressure to figure out how to deal with diagnoses like the one you got and all the changes that come with them, so just figure out what you need in order to make it through and maybe even feel content in the next day/week/month/hour. then do that. celebrate your small successes and breakthroughs as much as you celebrate the really big intense ones.
i have to admit i smiled when i read the part in this entry where you quoted what i said at sushi. no one has called me a wise woman in a long time, in fact some of the things the kids i work with say to me are pretty much opposite of that. reading your words was a refreshing change, let me tell ya. thank you.