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went to the tate, ok but not mind blowing as i hoped. saw some pollocks and loved them, the rothko's were awesome and i loved the gilbert and george.....hold on....it was'nt that bad as i thought!!

Tate Britian or the Saatchi next

stayed in london and had a few drinks by the river....what draws people to riverside pubs?


blew off my shrink appointment, go next...
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i'm a fool. i don't love that girl. it's an infatuation which i now realise could never happen. don't think i'll go to the tate tomorrow............pointless and i'm skint!

i'm drinking too much. i use it to avoid my life, my life.....my life.... i do not have a life. i exist. do not produce or provide. i'm a worthless piece of shit that deserves nothing.

on a lighter note.......what lighter note! i'm a knob, an idiot who once believed his own hype........need to get real soon or die.

still think that i love becca....
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the back is better, shame chiropractors cannot sort out my head as i feel that i am slipping back into a funk......
all i seem to do is try to save money, drink heavy on a friday and spend the week skint!!!
bollox to this! I'm going out and getting drunk, it gets me thru the night.

on a lighter note, am going to the...
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chiropractors today....threw my back out a few weeks ago and along with the heat it's causing me to lose sleep.....
it costs 30 quid a pop but if it means that i can get some shut eye so be it...........

got another tattoo, 5 large stars down the back of my arm.went down the pub and talked to the landlady.......i'm too old to have a crush.....are'nt i?

bank holiday monday......bored.

won 100 on the lottery....what do i do?

do i go out, get drunk, fall down, forget

do i use the money to live on for the next several days

blow it on take aways


got to be sensible lots of expense coming up over the next few days.....chiropracter, hospital in london, my shrink and tate modern all to pay for....


staying...
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going to have to sort out the camera so that i can post some pictures....

going for lunch with dad so a good day should ensue.

is it because it's a bank holiday or it sunny...i'm feeling o.k then i realise that it's the last bank holiday of the year....summer's over....the long crawl into winter and all that depression it brings....ho hum....drink, forget, deny, enjoy...
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friday nights are bad, bad, bad....... drank too much, spent too much (now poor for the next 5 weeks) and lusted far too much.
I must have broken several commandments, going straight to hell....although i bet you'll get a late drink down ther...

got paid today so the cloud lifts for a while and the sunshine feels good.
will go down the pub tonight, pay the tab (not so good) and lust over the landlords wife (25 and hot, hot, hot. very good).

i feel another piercing coming on.........