So. I lost an entire fucking blog. Ugh.
Here goes trying to recreate that blog.
Sorry for being nearly a month behind on posting. I got lazy. Plain and simple.
I've fallen into a depression, I had a HUGE breakdown last week and almost went MIA for 7 days, I think the fact that someone keyed my driver's side door was the main cause of the breakdown, and then other things just became the straws that broke the camels back and I went over the deep end.
I'm coming back around, but the depression hasn't improved much. But, I'm not going to shut down. I did for nearly a week. I haven't left my house for days.
Monday was my first time out.
Anyway.
So I've been meeting with doctors to try and get into someone to start talking about some of the issues that I'm having and why I had my breakdown. The details are pretty personal to go into here. I know I've told you guys a lot in the past, but it's also come to my attention that people who know me here in Atlanta visit this and well, no one in this city knows how to keep their fuckin' mouths shut. I'm tired of being on everyone's to-do list of talking shit. I really just want to be left the fuck alone. But I'm sure I've already given people enough fuel with talking about depression.
So the breakdown was actually a good thing.
I've done a complete 180. Took a few days. But I did it.
I'm done catering to the people who make me feel like shit CONSTANTLY. It's not going to happen anymore.
I don't know if it's better to just tell these people they're not healthy for me, or if I should just not talk to them anymore. Right now, I'm going with, don't talk to them. So far it's worked.
I have however become obsessed with personal image.
But rather than get negative obsessive, I'm going to really try and refocus my brain to the positive side.
I joined a 30 day challenge on Tumblr (my new Tumblr)
The challenge started today.
So here we go.
CW: 173.6
UGW: 125-130
30DG (30 Day Goal): -8+lbs. I wanted to shoot for 10, but I figure 8 seems a little healthier. that's actually 2lbs per week.
How will I do this?
I started my new Tumblr. Which will also serve as a daily health journal, especially since some other girls who are into or getting into fitness and weight loss have started following me. I've also started a hand-written journal as well. My hand-written one is mainly tracking food, planning workout ideas, and planning what foods I should be cooking. It's my reference guide, even when I'm feeling like I want to eat crappy food.
I'm going to work out 6-7 days per week.
Couch to 5k 3 days a week. I have Warrior Dash coming up in May.
Strength training, weights and resistance, in the gym.
Also pilates exercises.
The 7th day is optional, but I have told myself that I at least need to do some good stretching for one hour, broken up into two 30-minute segments. One in the AM, one in the PM before bed.
NEW SLEEP SCHEDULE! I have been staying up til 5am and sleeping until 1pm. No more. In bed no later than 1am rise no later than 11am.
I really want to try and stick to a 1100-1200 calorie per day diet, but it's been hard. I've been consistently hovering around 900 calories the past few days. Hopefully with the new sleep schedule that will all change.
I'm not doing this for anyone but myself. I can't be happy in relationships or even friendships if I'm not happy with myself, and I know that one of my biggest issues is not being happy with how unhealthy I have become. I used to be really fit and small. Horseback riding, track, volleyball, dance, you name it, I was doing it. Then who knows what happened, but I got completely off track... right around the time I turned 19. So I have 6 years of mistakes to correct. Well, there was a year where I was on my way to becoming more fit, but instead of fixing the issues then, I kept going the negative route. So I guess I have around 4 years to correct. I know it's not going to happen over night. I know that in order to lose nearly 50lbs it's going to take some time. I would love to have my UGW by May, but I'm not going to beat myself up, because I also know that I'll have a better, healthier body before then already.
If anyone wants to join me, let me know. I'll be posting regularly. So my blogs might get boring because they'll be mainly about changing my life and fitness and food lol. If I go out on a date, I promise to let you guys know. There's a chance of a date tonight, but I haven't talked to the guy yet today.
So anyway.
That's not nearly as good as my last blog. But that's usually how it happens. If I think of anything else to write in here, I will update.
Here goes trying to recreate that blog.
Sorry for being nearly a month behind on posting. I got lazy. Plain and simple.
I've fallen into a depression, I had a HUGE breakdown last week and almost went MIA for 7 days, I think the fact that someone keyed my driver's side door was the main cause of the breakdown, and then other things just became the straws that broke the camels back and I went over the deep end.
I'm coming back around, but the depression hasn't improved much. But, I'm not going to shut down. I did for nearly a week. I haven't left my house for days.
Monday was my first time out.
Anyway.
So I've been meeting with doctors to try and get into someone to start talking about some of the issues that I'm having and why I had my breakdown. The details are pretty personal to go into here. I know I've told you guys a lot in the past, but it's also come to my attention that people who know me here in Atlanta visit this and well, no one in this city knows how to keep their fuckin' mouths shut. I'm tired of being on everyone's to-do list of talking shit. I really just want to be left the fuck alone. But I'm sure I've already given people enough fuel with talking about depression.
So the breakdown was actually a good thing.
I've done a complete 180. Took a few days. But I did it.
I'm done catering to the people who make me feel like shit CONSTANTLY. It's not going to happen anymore.
I don't know if it's better to just tell these people they're not healthy for me, or if I should just not talk to them anymore. Right now, I'm going with, don't talk to them. So far it's worked.
I have however become obsessed with personal image.
But rather than get negative obsessive, I'm going to really try and refocus my brain to the positive side.
I joined a 30 day challenge on Tumblr (my new Tumblr)
The challenge started today.
So here we go.
CW: 173.6
UGW: 125-130
30DG (30 Day Goal): -8+lbs. I wanted to shoot for 10, but I figure 8 seems a little healthier. that's actually 2lbs per week.
How will I do this?
I started my new Tumblr. Which will also serve as a daily health journal, especially since some other girls who are into or getting into fitness and weight loss have started following me. I've also started a hand-written journal as well. My hand-written one is mainly tracking food, planning workout ideas, and planning what foods I should be cooking. It's my reference guide, even when I'm feeling like I want to eat crappy food.
I'm going to work out 6-7 days per week.
Couch to 5k 3 days a week. I have Warrior Dash coming up in May.
Strength training, weights and resistance, in the gym.
Also pilates exercises.
The 7th day is optional, but I have told myself that I at least need to do some good stretching for one hour, broken up into two 30-minute segments. One in the AM, one in the PM before bed.
NEW SLEEP SCHEDULE! I have been staying up til 5am and sleeping until 1pm. No more. In bed no later than 1am rise no later than 11am.
I really want to try and stick to a 1100-1200 calorie per day diet, but it's been hard. I've been consistently hovering around 900 calories the past few days. Hopefully with the new sleep schedule that will all change.
I'm not doing this for anyone but myself. I can't be happy in relationships or even friendships if I'm not happy with myself, and I know that one of my biggest issues is not being happy with how unhealthy I have become. I used to be really fit and small. Horseback riding, track, volleyball, dance, you name it, I was doing it. Then who knows what happened, but I got completely off track... right around the time I turned 19. So I have 6 years of mistakes to correct. Well, there was a year where I was on my way to becoming more fit, but instead of fixing the issues then, I kept going the negative route. So I guess I have around 4 years to correct. I know it's not going to happen over night. I know that in order to lose nearly 50lbs it's going to take some time. I would love to have my UGW by May, but I'm not going to beat myself up, because I also know that I'll have a better, healthier body before then already.
If anyone wants to join me, let me know. I'll be posting regularly. So my blogs might get boring because they'll be mainly about changing my life and fitness and food lol. If I go out on a date, I promise to let you guys know. There's a chance of a date tonight, but I haven't talked to the guy yet today.
So anyway.
That's not nearly as good as my last blog. But that's usually how it happens. If I think of anything else to write in here, I will update.
i really think you know some horrible people, dude.
Sounds like a pretty serious game plan for you diet program. Will be interested to see how it goes