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I hate that I fall under the spell of Consumerism...but I just cant help it. As much as I wish I could just get by with out buying things that I really dont need...I find myself once again caught in the act of purchasing clothes, clothes and more clothes. I hate myself for doing it especially when I think that my money could be more well spent on charity or even probably saving for my or my sons future...but I enter a mall ( which I hate and only went there b/c my son begged and begged) and I come out with 23 artilces of clothing.

I know it probably has more to do with my addictive personality and that I never do anything in moderation...but still it goes agaisnt everything I want for myself.

The next time someone knows that I am going anywhere near a store...maybe they should come with me and handcuff my arms to theirs and make sure that i dont try one peice of clothing on. HMMM...a thought...maybe just one b/c handcuffs and getting naked in a dressing room could only lead to something exciting and naughty...any takers????

But I will look really hot at work for next few weeks. I got a new office in a city about 2 hours away that I have to go to once a week...maybe just maybe someone there will be someone worth my time and enery...I can only hope for a tall...hopefully shaved headed monster of a man...yeh, I think that is what I am in to right now...

Sunday is my day to super clean my house...and I am having a hard time finding the motivation needed to do it. So someone please tell me to get off my ass and mop and dust.