uns0uled

Hello to all,

I have big news for all of you. I will be terminating my membership on Suicidegirls.com ... Indeed in a couple of days, I will no longer respond throught this site... Until I become an Sg of course ! So to all of you wondering.. I will get around to doing that after this semester ends. So expect my debut set sometime around mid- february....

I do not want to see sad faces. Rejoice, my good friends ! you may still keep in touch with me throught the adresses provided in my contact page. But as they will not be available as soon as my page goes off... you can mail me at amaris666@hotmail.com and I will respond !

As I do not want to leave you empty handed ( and quite eager to read my journal entry, here's a long and juicy one.

I haven't been feeling too great the last past weeks and months. First the whole this with my ex boyfriend, and quitting my band since I didnt have enough time.. ( the joining an other band and quitting that one too.. ), missing out on tons of stuff because I have 40 hours of school per week... and during all that j-f growing closer and on me.. and then all thease deep feelings for my sweetie.. loosing my best friend to heroin, my good friend vince making a suicide attempt, my step brother being admitted to the hospital and having major surgery, fights with my parents ( you know then kind where you're glad you dont live in a dish shop ), suicide attempts, getting kicked out of my job... moving out of my appartement because my roomy was too much of a slob... and loads of other shit ...

And now as I said in my last journal entry, things where fucked with j-f and I was lost... ( read it.. you'll understand .. ) and now I have just completed this weird chinese game thingy... and well it says that I love j-f... so ya I'm totally fucked up now... I dont beleive in this things but ahh.... this is weird... lol


I spent my whole lunch hour on a swing, revising my chemistry notes and since I had half period off to study
I only left my swing at 2h45... and I took my time to get back to school it took me 15 minutes... but actually the park is 5 minutes away ! It was soft and sunny out the light was almost gauzy.... ahhh so pretty ! There was young mothers with their child in their strollers all snuggled up and this lady actually asked me to watch over her kid while she was talking on her cell phone... I dont think she trusted me.. but the little girl was talking avidly and happily to me and she was all excited about my clothing and piercings And her mother saw that we got along really well.. after talking for a good half hour.. she asked me if I wanted to baby sit her kid and wow she actually lives 5 streets away from me...that was just incredible.. such a pretty little girl.. I feel like I have found a little sister

While we spent our time swinging ... my friend told me she has a tumor... on her hands... some kind of cancer... I cant say I didnt see it coming.. she has had big lumps on the upper part of her hand for a year and half now... I just hope they will remove the shit before she has to be amputated... but she will have arthrisist for ever ... *sigh*... I gave her the longest hug ever... it lasted for ages...

I also want to mention that my sweetie.. is the only person for me in this world and that well.. Aaron.... I LOVE YOU miaouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

I wish you all the best and I am looking forward to being your eye candy in a couple of months


much love and hugs