I've been having an incredibly rough last few days... I went all the way with what I wanted to do... and just before shooting... I realized that well... thats not the way I was meant to leave earth... I now am embellished by two new scars and I love them...
I'm still not eating.. its not worth it.. and I'm still disgusted with everything... but I just dont want to die now.. I still have two experiences to live.. then I'm done..
Every friday night I die... I just can't sleep.. Every friday night I die and I always wonder why... I wake up in the morning... ( from Mike who wrote a song about me... check it out.. it's by Angelsinanarchy---} name of his group )
I love you all and thanks for caring about me... and as for juicy comment subjects.. whats your philosophy on life/death.. I'm curious to see who might have one similar to mine...
I'm sorry I got you worried, and that you all were concerned...
: hugs : to all
~feels like shit~
I'm still not eating.. its not worth it.. and I'm still disgusted with everything... but I just dont want to die now.. I still have two experiences to live.. then I'm done..
Every friday night I die... I just can't sleep.. Every friday night I die and I always wonder why... I wake up in the morning... ( from Mike who wrote a song about me... check it out.. it's by Angelsinanarchy---} name of his group )
I love you all and thanks for caring about me... and as for juicy comment subjects.. whats your philosophy on life/death.. I'm curious to see who might have one similar to mine...
I'm sorry I got you worried, and that you all were concerned...
: hugs : to all
~feels like shit~
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My philosophy? i guess i am the over thinker i have been diagnosed i went through a rough stage but being a compete depression all through my childhood up until college i was used to feeling like that until something good happens in my world it doesnt have to be spectacular just something to make me feel human it can be a simple gesture aslong as it means something. I live now to be the musician i make myself out to be it keeps me alive you might say and i have no need to kill myself because i don't want to leave this world without making my point. I long for humanity too mainly a girlfriend i actually like and who likes me and doesn't just want to fuck me which has usually been the case up until now. People do stupid things when depressed in my case it was drugs and running away from my problems and i ended up in Chicago with practically no friends and my natural instinct of survival as my only life line. Suicide is a low, it is something you can't justify even if you are in a hole ut there are different cases it just saddens me to think some do this for no real reason at all. Its all about a strong mentality those who suffer should have this or they are as good as dead if not literally.
inov8ve:
how r u doin today kiddo?? 
