unkyjar

I say my sad things here, I don't know why. It just feels safe.

I've still fallen for my friend Amy....but she's in a girls only phase, and even if she wasn't it has been made crystal clear that her feelings torwards me will never change from friendship to something else. Unfortunately it's hard to fend of your own emotions, especially when you like a girl for her flaws instead of despite them.

And Amy has fallen for my best friend and roommate Casi, who is more than just a bit partial to Amy. Now normally this is where my voyeuristic instincts kick in, but I'm trying to be very careful not to make Amy uncomfortable because I'd rather have a good friendship than nothing at all.

What really sucks is that this is the first time I've felt this intensely for anyone in a long time.

Me, I just want to be happy, and to have someone to hold and cherish. To kiss and snuggle with, to while away long hours in debate and stimulating conversation.

It's me Jarrod. With a hundred good female friends and not a single one to call his own.