I want to apologize to anyone who may have offended in any way by my last blog post...

That being said....

If you take offence to the idea of being able to at will just.... bliss out into a phenomenal orgasm with no mess....

I honestly dont care if you were offended, and I hope that you look at the offence closely and question why you may have gotten offended.

ok

So.

Self... assesss....

its a really bright yellow from me to the universe.

Please... i get it.

like. i get it....

life is a beautiful and chaotic web of happenstance that glistens in the pre dawn light of a "karmic gift".

now...

i.... have to say... with great spiderman reference comes great bla bla bla whatever uncle ben... they turned you into a rice spokeserson with that mentality my guy.

no i joke to relieve the pressure of.... so... i had a hari krishna bless em with some holy water as a thank you type friendship gensture. now... i'm not gonna go into where or what yet. but i flet that water intensely.

If you know me a little.... youre probably aware that i work with energy....

when those cold drops of water hit my scalp..... it was like a fire searing coldly down dripping into my crown chakra....

now...

7? months later (time is still a mess to me)

anyway

it finally left the crown.

now for those of you not familiar with chakras...

crown is where we recieve

its insperation

its ephifany

and i lay in bed... and felt my spine.... and i realized i could feel the misalignment

and then i thought about how it felt to be adjusted

and i emulated feel

and the satisfaction and relief and joy and wow of that first little pop of the spine...

thinking back to it...

wow

tha

the drift and relax into third eye is probably indescribable

i realized mid blog post that i could make it build just by thinking

and i could edge?

and if i could edge....

so....

sorry i ended so abruptly

I also have been very seriously thinking about the role of gender and what gender is...

my feelings are not yet fully formed, but i do know this.

I am fascinated with the idea of nonbinary.

For this I would like to credit some of ethe early inspiration of thought to a SG model, but I will not disclose their name for fear of outing or causing embarrassment.

I am not at a point where I would be comfortable in claiming that gender identity for myself, but I do know.... I have never felt like a "typical guy"

but i know i am not a woman.

and i look inside, and i can identify both energies and their influences and interactions.... so i keep thinking.

perhaps one day i'll feel

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