If youve been reading previous blog posts this might come as less of a shock, but the crazy abusive toxic ex... the one i had to confront in open court about my sexlife on the 29th.... she killed herself two nights ago. Its a bit of a shock.... im still processing.... thanks... ill be ok.
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unknowntrigram:
@headshot im still processing a ton... the relationship... the ending of the relationship... the survivors guilt/savior desire bullshit.... a mental image.... thank you for your kind thoughts.
headshot:
@NOTANEMOBOY This is a difficult situation and rationalizing feelings can help. We don't choose what to feel, we can't choose how to feel about it
According to bodyfat i should have visible abs, but losing 180 or so pounds seems to have left my skin a bit blown out....
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belladonna:
congrats for your process!! I know its not easy, but we are in this together!
unknowntrigram:
@belladonna thanks for helping by being a source of insperation.
headshot:
What happened?
unknowntrigram:
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So...
If you've been reading you recently were introduced to the madness that was my relationship.
well.
so i filed a restraining order..
not even 8 hours later?
i get a text.
she?
sadly...
is probably going to be going to jail tomorrow.
Oh man... what a title... lets dive in.
6 months ago I met this girl...
Yesterday I told her it was done.
Tomorrow I will go to her house (with an escort) to pick up relationship detritus that accumulates as one hangs out over time...
I told her in a fight once... its hard to attempt to build something with someone who is more interested...
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THEN STAY TUNED!!!
awe obvious clickbait is obvious....
no seriously though
wait...
just wait...
tomorrow i'll have a entry for yall.
or
coversly
i might have been murdered in a fit of passion.
god i wish that were a joke.
dear diary.
the woman who i trained to be able to defend herself against a 6'3" 200 lb rapist attacker.... might... might... might... yeah
so......
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belladonna:
omg dear!! hope this all be okay!!!!
Well... Seems like for the 2nd time in a row I have gotten it right? No issues this time, but the bruse from two weeks ago still is tender... not bad, but tender.
This whole injecting hormones thing is really fascinating.
The changes are slow.
So very very slow.
But suddenly... wow.
Shit keeps sneaking up on me.
The... the shear magnitude of scope... its...
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Well... here we are... ninth injection of testosterone.
My overall impressions so far as of two months of treatment:
Testosterone is super super super super super powerful....
Testosterone is less powerful than you might expect...
The feeling of testosterone?
A guttural growl in the dark threatening....
A sense of wanting to destroy the world on the tip of your cock...
When I push T... I...
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belladonna:
HOOOOT BABE 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤
unknowntrigram:
@belladonna *blushes huge* awe shucks. thanks.
Had someone who was "living off the grid" communicate with me over the... internet? from their house?
Then when I pointed out that the "internet" was a "grid system" of public utility... they decided that they would block me rather than admit they are not actually off the grid...
People are weird.
So very weird.
I get accused of being a no education fox tv...
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